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21 " And I know that winter is supposed to end, but things aren't always the way they are supposed to be. "
― Laura Nowlin , If He Had Been with Me
22 " Sometimes I am disappointed with love. "
23 " but sometimes I wonder if she would have cared as much if I had been ugly as well as odd. "
24 " But that's not real life.""So? "
25 " But you think we're here for beautiful things and you think sadness is beautiful?""It can be," I say. "
26 " It was the sort of happiness that fools you into thinking that there is still so much more, maybe even enough to laugh forever. "
27 " Just because something seems impossible doesn´t mean that you shouldn´t try. "
28 " I love him in a way I cannot define, as if my love were an organ within my body that I could not live without yet could not pick out of an anatomy book. "
29 " They don’t see that her tension and perfection are the only things holding her together. "
30 " I want to savor this wonder, this happening of loving a book and reading it for the first time, because the first time is always the best, and I will never read this book for the first time ever again. "
31 " I can see some of the roses still blooming in my mother´s garden. Brown on the edges and bright in other colors, their petals drooping downward, dying just as their lives have begun.They stayed past their time, and I´ve realized that I have too. "
32 " Perhaps he would ask me what books mean to me. I would tell him that it means living another life; "
33 " Is all pink entirely banned?''Not if it's like a sassy pink,' I say. 'But if it's a sweet, girl pink, yes. Maybe some shade of sarcastic pink if it isn't too abrasive. "
34 " There just isn't a way for two people on a bed to take off their jeans without being awkward and embarrassing. But it can still be perfect and wonderful too. "
35 " I lay on my bed in late afternoon, watching a patch of light move across the floor, my throat tight, my body still. This is the saddest part of any day, when too much time has passed to create happiness while it is still light out. It’s too late. The daylight has been squandered on my immobility. The patch of light falls still; it begins to fade. It will be better when it is gone. This is only one day, I remind myself, and it is very nearly over. "
36 " The wind shakes the leaves and I have a sudden urge to go outside. The gray world out there looks inviting, velvety and cool. "
37 " This is the saddest part of any day, when too much time has passed to create happiness while it is still light out. "
38 " I want to pull Finny out of my mind like a splinter so that I can adore Jamie the way he deserves to be adored. And even more than that, because I am a selfish, bad creature, I want to feel that adoration. I want to be free of this guilt. "
39 " This book is a treasure; I did not suspect it would be so good when I picked it up, but now I can feel the printed words seeping through my skin and into my veins, rushing to my heart and marking it forever. I want to savor this wonder, this happening of loving a book and reading it for the first time, because the first time is always the best, and I will never read this book for the first time ever again. "
40 " I cannot imagine not wanting to live. I cannot imagine not believing that it will be better someday. I cannot imagine that there is nothing left to see, that there is nothing to tie me to Earth. As long as I want to live, then I must be fine. "