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21 " If I’m going to die, I’d like to actually live first. And then I’ll die. "
― Rachael Lippincott , Five Feet Apart
22 " We need that touch from the one we love, almost as much as we need air to breathe. I never understood the importance of touch, his touch... until I couldn't have it. "
23 " For the first time I feel the weight of every single inch, every millimeter, of the six feet between us. "
24 " And I realize I'm doing the one thing I've told myself this whole time I wouldn't do. I'm wanting something I can never have. "
25 " I have nothing left to give. I have nothing left to-no.I straighten, desperately pulling in one more short breath, knowing deep in my chest that it is the last breath I will ever get, and I gave it to her, I gave her everything to her, the girl I love. She deserves that. "
26 " It didn’t hurt. I wasn’t scared. "
27 " Poe’s gone. "
28 " I look at the holiday lights in the distance, twinkling like stars, calling out to me. This time I respond. "
29 " So is your plan to die really, really smart so you can join the debate team of the dead? "
30 " I think a well-drawn cartoon can say more than words ever could, you know? It could change minds. "
31 " I think about that very last breath...sucking for air, pulling and pulling and getting nothing. I think about my chest muscles ripping and burning, absolutely useless. No air — no nothing, just black. "
32 " I lie back, putting my hands behind my head, the room seeming uncomfortably quiet even though it’s still just me in here. But as I roll over and turn out the light, I realize for the first time in a long time, I don’t really feel alone. "
33 " Getting my hopes up when a hospital is involved doesn't seem like a good idea to me. "
34 " I wonder, all too often, what it would be like to have lungs this healthy. This alive. I take a deep breath, feeling the air fight its way in and out of my body. "
35 " You're a dying girl with survivor's guilt. That is a complete mind-fuck. "
36 " I don’t know what I’d do without you. "
37 " For saying something real. "
38 " She gives me a big smile. “Don’t give me that. I see your pills behind you on your bedside table. "
39 " Let’s get an Uber, at least? "
40 " Nah, unless, of course, a hospital there is claiming to have some new magical stem-cell therapy to cure B. cepacia. "