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1 " When we grow up, we find ways to hide our anxieties, our loneliness, our fear and sorrow. But children hide nothing, putting everything into their tears, which they spread liberally about for the whole world to see. "
― Yōko Ogawa , The Diving Pool: Three Novellas
2 " Sometimes I wish I could describe how wonderful I feel in those few seconds from the time he spreads his arms above his head, as if trying to grab hold of something, to the instant he vanishes into the water. But I can never find the right words. Perhaps it’s because he’s falling through time, to a place where words can never reach. "
3 " I couldn't reach him from here even if I tried. "
4 " Still, being alone doesn't mean you have to be miserable. In that sense it's different from losing something. You've still got yourself, even if you lose everything else. You've got to have faith in yourself and not get down just because you're on your own. "
5 " I was always watching you." This could have been a breathless declaration of love or a final farewell. "
6 " I'm sure it must have been even more wonderful then, when we were young and knew nothing about the pain of growing up. "
7 " I knew immediately that it was different from other photographs.The night sky in the background was pure and black, so dark it made you dizzy if you stared at it too long. The rain drifted through the frame like a gentle mist, but right in the middle was a hollow area in the shape of a lima been. "
8 " Since that time, I've had many similar moments, and I can never hear the words "family" and "home" without feeling that they sound strange, never simply hear them and let them go. When I stop to examine them, though, the words seem hollow, seem to rattle at my feet like empty cans. "
9 " I watched him walking away, sweater over his shoulders, bag in hand, until he was no more than a tiny point in the distance. I watched, without so much as blinking, and I realized how utterly lonely I was. But all my staring couldn’t prevent that distant point from vanishing like a snowflake dissolving in the sunlight. "
10 " Disappeared' is the only way to describe it-it was as if he dissolved into thin air without so much as a whimper. I wouldn't have believed that a human being with a brain, a heart, with arms and legs and the power of speech could have simple vanished like that. There was nothing about him that suggested he would disappear. "
11 " She had changed the subject so quickly that I completely forgot to congratulate her. But, then again, I wasn’t quite sure congratulations were appropriate for a baby who would be born to my sister and her husband. I looked up “congratulate” in the dictionary: it said, “to wish someone joy.” “That doesn’t mean much,” I muttered, tracing my finger over a line of characters that held no promise of joy themselves. "
12 " the sound of his voice could wash away the sour feeling in my stomach. "
13 " The supple line of his jaw and the fixed plane of his collarbone functioned together like a precisely calibrated instrument that seemed to become a separate living thing as we watched. "
14 " I wonder how she broke the news to her husband. I don't really know what they talk about when I'm not around. In fact, I don't really understand couples at all. They seem like some sort of inexplicable gaseous body to me—a shapeless, colorless, unintelligible thing, trapped in a laboratory beaker. "
15 " It’s peaceful eating outside by myself, "
16 " It was hard to know what was coming, where our lives would lead, and it made me sad to think about the future. "
17 " It’s peaceful eating outside by myself, looking up at the night sky. The evenings are warmer now that spring is almost here, and the air feels soft. My hands and feet pressed against the mat are dull and numb, but everything else—the crepe myrtle, the bricks lining the flower beds, "
18 " The waves of regret were gentle, but I know they would ripple on forever "
19 " Do you suppose puppies pop out like peas popping out of the pod? "
20 " Your body falling through space touches the deepest part of me. "