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41 " En la agenda escribí que era como estar muerta, pero ¿esto? Esto es peor. Tengo la sensación de morir cada día. Necesito sentir que estoy progresando. No puedo imaginarme continuando así mucho más tiempo. Sé que esta noche me dormiré y mañana me despertaré de nuevo sin saber nada, y pasado mañana, y al otro, todos los días de mi vida. No me lo puedo imaginar. No puedo afrontarlo. Esto no es vida, es solo una existencia, saltar de un momento al siguiente ignorando el pasado y sin planes para el futuro. Lo peor de todo es que ni siquiera sé qué no sé. Puede que haya muchas cosas esperando a hacerme daño. Cosas que ni siquiera soy capaz de imaginar. "
― S.J. Watson , Before I Go to Sleep
42 " No treasure house of recollection, no wealth of experience, no accumulated wisdom to pass on. What are we, if not an accumulation of our memories? "
43 " We are in a restaurant, smilling, leaning in over a half-eaten meal, our faces flushed with love and thr bite of the sun. "
44 " I cannot imagine how I will cope when I discover that my life is behind me, has already happened, and I have nothing to show for it. No treasure house of recollection, no wealth of experience, no accumulated wisdom to pass on. What are we, if not an accumulation of our memories? "
45 " He put his hand on mine. I fell into him, knowing what he would do, what he must do, and he did. He opened his arms and held me, and I let him embrace me. “It’s okay,” he said. “It’s okay. "
46 " There is so much,I thought,just under the surface. So many memories, darting like silvery minnows in a shallow stream. "
47 " الآن أدرك أنني أحبه,ولطالما أحببته.وان توجب علي أن أتعلم حبه كل يوم,اذا,فليكن ذلك,فهذا هو ما سأفعله. "
48 " الحقيقة هي كل ما تبقي لي فهي الماضي الذي يجعلني انسانة حقيقية.انني من دونها لا شئ ولست أكثر من مجرد حيوان بلا ماض ولا تاريخ ولا ذاكرة. "
49 " It’s only with hindsight we can see things for what they are. "
50 " Why did he feel that wanting to make sense of my fractured life meant that I wanted to change it in some way? "
51 " How will I feel when I look in a mirror and see the reflection of my grandmother? "
52 " Was sind wir denn, wenn nicht eine Ansammlung von Erinnerungen? "
53 " Ich rutsche. Tiefer und tiefer. In die Dunkelheit. Ich darf nicht schlafen. Ich darf nicht schlafen. Ich. Darf. Nicht. Schlafen. "
54 " I asked for this, I thought, at the same time as I never asked for this. Is it possible to bothwant and not want something at the same time? "
55 " We sat opposite each other across a table that swam with spilled coffee, warming our hands on our drinks. "
56 " The hands on the shoulder, then the hug.The mouths that find each other through the tears. "
57 " كل ما استطعت فعله أنني أخذت أراقب بعجز بينما راحت تلك الذكريات تمر أمام عيني مسرعة ثم تختفي بسرعة كما ظهرت. "
58 " ان حزنه لم يبد لي جديدا.وحان الوقت حتي تخمد أحزانه وتستقر في أعماقه وتصبح جزءا من الأساس الذس يبني عليه كل حياته,لا أن تصبح سببا في تحطيمها. ان جرحي وحده هو ما ينزف ويتجدد كل يوم من أيام حياتي. "
59 " His grief is not new. It has had the time to bed down within him, to become part of his foundations, rather than something that rocks them. "
60 " I saw his eyes go up and he looked past me, toward the door, as if he were watching it, waiting. But there was no one there, it did not open, no one left or came in. I wondered if he was actually dreaming of escape. "