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1 " I cry even harder, thinking of how it could have been, of how I thought it would be. For the first time, I want to give up, to die, because suddenly everything is too much and there is no solution in sight. "
― B.A. Paris , Behind Closed Doors
2 " I look around at everybody laughing and joking together and struggle to understand my life has become a living hell that nobody present could even begin to imagine "
3 " Do I detect a renewal of your fighting spirit? I'm so glad. To tell the truth, I've been getting quite bored. Bring it on, Grace--I'm waiting for you. "
4 " Fear,’ he whispered. ‘There is nothing quite like it. I love how it looks, I love how it feels, I love how it smells. And I especially love the sound of it.’ I felt his tongue on my cheek. ‘I even love the taste of it "
5 " We go downstairs and in the hall, he takes my coat from the cupboard and holds it open while I slip my arms into it. In the drive outside, he holds the car door for me and waits until I’m in. As he closes it behind me, I can’t help thinking it’s a shame he’s such a sadistic bastard, because he has wonderful manners. "
6 " I don't suppose I could have a whiskey instead of the wine, could I?""Whiskey?""Yes""I didn't know you drank whiskey.""And I didn't know you were a psychopath. Just bring me a whiskey "
7 " I can’t help thinking it’s a shame he’s such a sadistic bastard, because he has wonderful manners. "
8 " What colour was Millie’s room, Grace? "
9 " When I look at him I feel dismayed as I always do at how normal he looks, because surely there should be something--pointed ears or a pair of horns--to warn people of his evilness. "
10 " The door opens and he stands in the doorway, my handsome, psychopathic husband. "
11 " Pretending to be broken would be much harder, simply because it was in my nature to fight back. "
12 " I like you Jack, but don’t like Jorj Koony "
13 " He prides himself on uttering only the truth, and enjoys that I am the only one who understands the meaning behind his words. "
14 " Had it all been a facade, had he covered his true self with a cloak of geniality and good humour to impress me? "
15 " But the truth is, we never really know what goes on, on the other side of the fence, behind those closed doors. Instead of looking over the fence, we should really be keeping our eyes fixed firmly on our side and cherishing the grass that we have—bald patches and all—just a little bit more. "
16 " I can barely get the word out. ‘Red,’ I tell her, my voice breaking. ‘Millie’s room was red.’ ‘That’s what I thought,’ she says softly. "
17 " The airport or the hospital? Your husband or your sister?’ He paused a moment. ‘Me, or Millie? "
18 " Without routine, there is no risk of me becoming institutionalised and unable to think for myself. And I must think for myself. "
19 " Red,’ says Jack. ‘It’s her favourite colour. "
20 " The enormity of what she’s doing, of what she’s offering to do, hits me and I feel myself starting to shake. ‘Thank you,’ I whisper. "