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Girl in the Woods: A Memoir QUOTES

Girl in the Woods: A Memoir QUOTES

1 " Come to the woods, for here is rest. There is no repose like that of the green deep woods. Sleep in forgetfulness of all ill. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

2 " The trees were friendly, they gave me rest and shadowed refuge. Slipping through them, I felt safe and competent. My whole body was occupied. I had little energy to think or worry. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

3 " Beneath hot sun, desert roses bloomed. Under cold moon, I still refused to. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

4 " And so, despite the complex web of paths, waterfalls, cliffs, as a hiker wanders downhill, drainages merge, faint, abstract paths coalesce, thicken, until there is one path – the one, natural, trodden way. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

5 " Water was liquid silver, water was gold. It was clarity—a sacred thing. Drinking was no longer something to take for granted. I’d never needed to consider water before. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

6 " I was passive by nature. I had always been. Arguing felt unnatural and uncomfortable. I was always agreeing even when I didn’t really, instinctively looking for ways to forfeit power, to become more dependent, to be taken care of. I realized how intensely Icecap reminded me of Jacob. They were similar, both diligent and harsh in their judgments—and my big brother’s sureness had always comforted me.

But as I ran on sore legs to keep up with Icecap, my tendency toward silence stressed me. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

7 " This was trail magic. Sea Breeze’s fire, his light, his heat, his life, remained, their salvation.

It is a fact that all drainages, if followed downhill, lead to the same lowland water body. Lost and fallen hikers follow drainages down because walking ridges is harder. And so, despite the complex web of paths, waterfalls, cliffs, as a hiker wanders downhill, drainages merge, faint, abstract paths coalesce, thicken, until there is one path – the one, natural, trodden way. It isn’t a coincidence that Sea Breeze, Brandon Day and Gina Allen, and countless other hikers all wandered, lost, down the same steep slope to nowhere. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

8 " I saw now that bad men existed who would take advantage of any weakness and insecurity they found when violating a victim. I saw it was not my fault; I did not choose to be raped or kidnapped. But now I was learning how to protect myself from the predators, to trust my No and my instinct and my strength. I was learning I was not to blame, I couldn't prevent men from trying to hurt me, but I could definitely fight back. And sometimes fighting back worked. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

9 " There was so little I wanted to carry. Packing my backpack took me all of four minutes "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

10 " The bravest thing I ever did was leave there. The next bravest thing I did was come back, to make myself heard. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

11 " I’d believed I needed to be steady in myself before I could function with others—but surviving alone no longer felt like a good way either. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

12 " On this walk I'd had so much time and space to actually figure out who I was without my mother's influence. I understood now: the things that my mother had found made her happy were not the same as the things that made me happy. And I understood: that was okay. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

13 " Still I walked into the snow, moving to keep warm, burning precious energy searching for an answer I couldn’t think of. I didn’t turn back, compelled to continue without the trail. I didn’t want to risk futilely backtracking. If I couldn’t find the trail before dark, I could wake tomorrow disoriented and desperate, without having even made any new miles; my loss of the PCT should have distressed me, but a new instinct led me forward. In this moment of despair I was refusing to stop fighting. I asked the mountains for some guidance, the strength to get myself out of here, and pulled wild power from within myself I’d never known I’d had.

I was no longer following a trail.

I was learning to follow myself. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

14 " And if I'd be left alone in the woods again, I smiled to think how I'd find new gifts and thrive. At the end of a long trail and the beginning of the rest of my life, I was committed to always loving myself. I would put myself in that win-win situation. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

15 " I realized that the most empowering important thing was actually simply taking care of myself. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

16 " I no longer needed to peel myself of my skin, or to hide. To Dash the colorless ephemeral things that existed just beneath my surface were as vivid as the beauty marks he traced on my cheek. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

17 " The way to self-love and admiration is to behave like someone whom you love and admire. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

18 " I didn’t know if I was brave or reckless. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

19 " The harsh dimness that follows loss isn’t static, but charged with the energy of immanent change. Hurt, I was left with a choice: wallow and stay in the dark, or seek light and fight to reach it. These two paths emerged. I had this choice to make. Loss is the shocking catalyst of transformation. I saw that this mountain valley, haunted by senseless murders, darker, had absorbed unthinkable violence and turned it into mesmerizing light. My rape became my catalyst. Rape gave me cause to flee the muteness – forced me into making a bold and forceful change. I chose to fight to find a way to leave to seek my own strength and beauty. I was searching to find the way to make light. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir

20 " I saw for the first time that I could stop giving people the power to make me feel disrespected. In my anger I began to see the absurdity of allowing this boy to shame me. "

― Aspen Matis , Girl in the Woods: A Memoir