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1 " When everything else is shattering, you feel like the one true constant. "
― Siobhan Davis , Losing Kyler (The Kennedy Boys, #2)
2 " I lie awake in bed until way past midnight, fervently hoping Ky is going make an appearance at any moment to explain his behavior. But as the clock chimes two, I have no choice but to face facts.He isn’t coming.And it feels ominous.Like the winds are changing, and destiny is altering.His absence is more than telling.It has a finality to it that scares me half to death. "
3 " I want to slap him.Curse him.Scream at him.Slap him some more.I want to reach a hand into his chest and squeeze that life-sustaining organ until he collapses from the lack of blood flow and the agonizing pain pummeling his heart until it’s scarcely beating. I want him to hurt so badly that he can barely breathe while strips tear from his heart.I want him to feel everything I’m feeling.To hurt as much as I do.I want all that.But I can’t convince myself it’s the truth.Because I love him too much. I don’t want him to hurt like that. "
4 " This is why I spent so long fighting my feelings for you. You don’t belong in my world. You’re too good for it. For me. I thought I was ready to be who you needed me to be, but I fell at the first hurdle. "
5 " Brad is a natural—perfect boyfriend material—if only I swung that way. "
6 " I want you to need me but not half as much as I want you to want me. "
7 " My entire life has been one big, fat whopper of a lie, and my parents betrayed me in the worst possible way. I don’t care if they believed they were protecting me. You don’t lie to the people you profess to love, no matter how painful the truth is. "
8 " This whole time, I’m staring at Ky—the one person I thought I had by my side. The one person who truly understands me, who has the power to make everything okay just by his mere presence.But I’ve lost him too. He’s been cruelly taken from me just as I felt he was finally mine.I have no one.And I’ve never felt more alone or more jaded with this life. "
9 " I’ve often wondered why it is that some people seem to coast through life without any issues while others are dealt more than their fair share. It doesn’t seem right, but I’ve come to the conclusion that God—if he exists—sends challenges to those he believes can handle it. Like an exercise in resilience. "
10 " I look up at Ky and his sorrowful expression matches my own. He kisses my cheek, and I cup his face. My mum’s words have helped put things in perspective, and I truly hope that her letter offers James some peace. "
11 " can’t see over the tears clouding my vision. Large watery drops mark the page where my tears fall. I bury my head in Ky’s chest, needing the feel and smell of him to ground me before I can resume reading. He holds me wordlessly, knowing exactly what I need without me having to say it. "
