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21 " I watched her die many times. In my way, not in hers. In sunlight, in shadow, by moonlight, by candlelight. In the long afternoons when the house was empty. Only the sun was there to keep us company. We shut him out. And why not? Very soon she was as eager for what's called loving as I was - more lost and drowned afterwards. "
― Jean Rhys , Wide Sargasso Sea
22 " If I was bound for hell, let it be hell. No more false heavens. No more damned magic. "
23 " I have been too unhappy, I thought, it cannot last, being so unhappy, it would kill you "
24 " They say when trouble comes close ranks, and so the white people did. "
25 " I sit at my window and the words fly past me like birds — with God's help I catch some. "
26 " If she says goodbye perhaps adieu. Adieu - like those old time songs she sang. Always adieu (and all songs say it). If she too says it, or weeps, I'll take her in my arms, my lunatic. She's mad but mine, mine. What will I care for gods or devils or for Fate itself. If she smiles or weeps or both. For me. "
27 " She’ll have no lover, for I don’t want her and she’ll see no other. "
28 " I have tried," I said, "but he does not believe me. It is too late for that now" (it is always too late for truth, I thought). "
29 " Now at last I know why I was brought here and what I have to do. "
30 " I took the red dress down and put it against myself. 'Does it make me look intemperate and unchaste?' I said. "
31 " Unhappily children do hurt flies "
32 " When you insult or injure the unfortunate or the unhappy, you insult Christ Himself and He will not forget, for they are His chosen ones. "
33 " If this is a sad story, don’t tell it to me tonight.’‘It is not sad,’ she said. ‘Only some things happen and are there for always even though you forget why or when. "
34 " There is no looking-glass here and I don't know what I am like now. I remember watching myself brush my hair and how my eyes looked back at me. The girl I saw was myself yet not quite myself. Long ago when I was a child and very lonely I tried to kiss her. But the glass was between us - hard, cold and misted over with my breath. Now they have taken everything away. What am I doing in this place and who am I? "
35 " I must remember about chandeliers and dancing, about swans and roses and snow. "
36 " But they left their treasure, gold and more gold. Some of it is found- but the finders never tell, because you see they’d only get one-third then: that’s the law of treasure. They want it all, so never speak of it. "
37 " Vain, silly creature. Made for loving? Yes, but she'll have no lover, for I don't want her and she'll see no other. "
38 " Why did you make me want to live? Why did you do that to me? "
39 " Rain, forever raining. Drown me in sleep. And soon. "
40 " I can remember every second of that morning, if I shut my eyes I can see the deep blue colour of the sky and the mango leaves, the pink and red hibiscus, the yellow handkerchief she wore around her head, tied in the Martinique fashion with the sharp points in front, but now I see everything still, fixed for ever like the colours in a stained-glass window. Only the clouds move. It was wrapped in a leaf, what she had given me, and I felt it cool and smooth against my skin. "