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41 " You must feel more than hate if you love her as much as you do.'Nate leaned his head back against the wall. Some words were better left unsaid, but strange things occurred in the darkness; words that would never be utterable in the daylight suddenly seemed necessary in the night. He let out a long breath and shrugged. 'There's nothing good or easy or kind about loving her. I'm completely consumed. I wouldn't change it. Not for anything in the world. But I don't think I've ever once been able to be happy about it. "
― Rebecca Crunden , A History of Madness (The Outlands Pentalogy #2)
42 " Ive been out there,' said Nate. 'On my own. It's the only place that's never worried me.''But what about mutants? Rabids? Wild animals?'What about guards, the Private Police, Crown and Council?' he countered. 'There's danger on both sides of the Wall. The difference is that those dangers make sense to me. I'd rather live a life without law and take my chances than risk dying helpless at the hands of another human who hates me and doesn't even know why. "
43 " It was selfish to ever want this life for you,' he admitted.'It's not selfish to want the one you love to want the life you love. "
44 " He's already frightened them,' he murmured. 'He frightens them because he refuses to die and people know that. People remember those meant to die who don't. "
― Rebecca Crunden , A Dance of Lies (The Outlands Pentalogy #4)
45 " I spend more time with Ronny than he does. She wants to learn how to fight. She wants to be strong. She's seen death and she's not scared. We shouldn't teach her to be scared. We should teach her that monsters can be fought and monsters can die, and the only thing she should be scared of is not fighting back. How am I wrong to say that? "
46 " I did survive. I survived and lived and have spent the past year thinking about all the things that I haven't had a chance to do. You don't think about the future when you're running, but idleness brings dreams back. "
47 " Tove leaned back on her hands. 'I don't think I'll ever forget the last time I saw Evander. They took you away and Nate kept screaming. But Evander was so quiet. He was always so calm, my brother. He smiled at Zoe and she stopped struggling, and then he looked at me.' Tove's voice broke and she had to clear her throat before continuing. 'He told me that no matter what became of us, it was going to be all right. In this world he would have us, and in the next he would have Sylvia, Gretchen and our parents. "Don't be afraid." That's what he said. "love outlasts pain. "
48 " Sorry,' she mumbled, wiping her eyes.'Don't ever apologise for crying,' he whispered. 'Or for caring. "
49 " Some things experienced under duress could never be shared or explained. She would never know just what horrors Nate has gone through in Redwater, or what Thom had experienced in the Red Arena or at the hands of Quen. She didn't want to. If they wanted to share, she'd listen, but she didn't yearn to know more horror. Whether she was scared that talking about it made it too real, or she thought the idea too impossibly horrible to Impart, or whether it was shame and hatred, Kitty could not find the words to relay what had happened in Timberview Palace. Quen and the cannibalism frightened her far less than the memories of Gabriel, which kept her forever feeling as if there was not enough space between their camp and Franklin's Wall. Death did not seem a secure enough holding cell for his soul. "
50 " She wished Evander was still with them. He had felt like a long-lost brother and had seemed so wise and sensible. He had been calculating and shrewd like Thom, but he had Nate's fire and rage. She found she wanted a brother more than she wanted most other things. Someone to protect her without wanting anything from her. Who knew her inside and out and did not judge her for being weak or cruel or sad or bitter. She envied siblings their closeness. She envied Nate and Thom most of all. "
51 " Not very long ago at all, the thought of killing and bloodshed would have horrified her. She had been appalled at Nate's constant fighting, at his random turns to violence. Killing had seemed so beneath them, something for the authorities to deal with out of sight of innocent eyes. Now she felt a growing hunger to tear and destroy. The problem was she didn't know if she could. She'd always wanted help. But she was tired of asking for help. Tired of hesitating. And still much, much too scared to do anything about either. "
52 " Evil men are not just soldiers,' the continued, much more heavily now, as if rebellion now ate his spirit where once it had filled him with fire. 'Evil men are all over. If it wasn't enough to endure torture myself, I now know that my brother has. Kitty has. We have all been scarred and disfigured by Cutta. That's why I won't join you. We are not obligated to save everyone. We're obligated only to ourselves. I gave my soul to Cutta once. I was raped and tortured and sterilised for it. Never again. "
53 " They never spoke about what haunted them, but then, they'd never needed to fill the space between them with words. They fell apart in silence, but they fell apart together. "
54 " No, I was ignorant of many things,' he said. 'We cannot keep comparing one side to the other if we are ever to have peace. We must think of ourselves as the same. We are all children of the Earth and we all belong here. "
55 " Nature didn't make her feel unclean the way so many things within the Kingdom did. "
56 " Thom gazed at the water for a few minutes before replying. 'I think Nate means it when he says that you are the only person for him in the world,' he allowed. 'He feels everything so strongly, so completely. He could never move on from you. I, on the other hand, am not my brother. I have to be able to choose when to keep someone and when to let them go. There is only one person in my life who does not fit into that mould, and he is the precise reason it is necessary. I will never put myself in a position where I have to pick someone over Nate. "
57 " Yet later that night, as Kitty watched Nate throw pumpkin seeds into Thom's hair with glee, she realised why Charles felt such fear over their bond. There was no limit to their love. Good or ill. "
58 " Riddle nodded. 'My father told him. He wasn't kind about it and I think it served to drive Quen to extremes. Perhaps out of anger. Perhaps not. Blood doesn't make a man, but sometimes darkness that seems predestined is easier to embrace.''If darkness were predestined, Nate, Thom and I are in for a delightful surprise. "
59 " But there are things not even Crown and Council can steal and control. Not my mind, not my heart, not my soul. "
― Rebecca Crunden , A Touch of Death (The Outlands Pentalogy #1)
60 " Even if they should fail, even if they should die, it would not be for lack of effort. "
― Rebecca Crunden , A Promise of Return (The Outlands Pentalogy #3)