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Amy Reed QUOTES

Amy Reed QUOTES

1 " Do you remember? Do you remember the world before the poison? "

― Amy Reed , Clean

2 " I’m feeling really hopeful about it, like maybe I actually have a chance to get better. To be happy. It’s funny, I just realized that my whole life, the whole time I’ve been trying to be perfect, I never once considered happiness as part of the equation. I guess it seemed so impossible I couldn’t even let myself fantasize about it. But now, I don’t know, things feel different somehow. Like impossible things might not be so impossible. "

― Amy Reed , Clean

3 " There is a picture of me in their heads, a picture of someone I don't know yet. She is not the chubby girl with the braces and bad perm. She is not the girl hiding in the bathroom at recess. She is someone new, a blank slate they have named beautiful. That is what I am now: beautiful, with this new body and face and hair and clothes. Beautiful, with this erasing of history. "

― Amy Reed , Beautiful

4 " I wonder if anybody else feels this way, if anyone in here is as scared as I am. Are they as sad and angry and confused and ashamed? Is that even possible? Is it even possible for one building to hold all that pain? "

― Amy Reed , Clean

5 " Phones are only good for ordering pizza and telling someone you're running late "

― Amy Reed , Crazy

6 " Do you remember? Do you remember the world before the dark? Do you remember the world with mothers and fathers and stillness that did not feel like death? "

― Amy Reed , Clean

7 " What if I'm so broken I can never do something as basic as feed myself? Do you realize how twisted that is? It amazes me sometimes that humans still exist. We're just animals, after all. And how can an animal get so removed from nature that it loses the instinct to keep itself alive? "

― Amy Reed , Clean

8 " I'd love to wrap myself inside your sadness and pretend it is mine "

― Amy Reed , Crazy

9 " You act like you're invincible, but I know deep down you want someone to hold your hand and buy you flowers and look you in the eye and tell you you're his soul mate. You want someone who will love every piece of you, even the pieces you can't love yourself. "

― Amy Reed , Crazy

10 " What if I can't ever be who you want me to be? What if I keep letting you down? "

― Amy Reed , Crazy

11 " All I know is I want you to be happy, and if I could do anything to give that to you, I would. "

― Amy Reed , Crazy

12 " I don't know if anyone can ever really explain why they believe in someone. But I do. I believe in you. I hope that's worth something. "

― Amy Reed , Crazy

13 " There is a whole other world with an entirely different version of me, a me that is not pretty, a me that no boys want, a me she would never talk to. "

― Amy Reed , Beautiful

14 " Your boyfriend smells bad, says Sarah as she sniffs the armpit of the giant sweatshirt.
All boys smell bad I say and she nods her head like we have just figured out something very important. "

― Amy Reed , Beautiful

15 " Imagine trying to live without air.
Now imagine something worse. "

― Amy Reed , Clean

16 " I think before I ever became an alcoholic, before I even tasted alcohol or tried drugs, I was already programmed to be this way. Before there was cocaine or vodka or sex or any of that, there was fantasy. There was escape. That was my first addiction. I remember being a little kid and imagining everything different, myself different. How did I get the idea in my head at age eight that everything was better somewhere else? Why would a child have a hole inside that can’t get full no matter what she does? The real world could never make me happy, so I retreated to the world inside my head. And as I grew, as the real world proved itself more and more painful, the fantasy world expanded. "

― Amy Reed , Clean

17 " I don’t feel great, but I also don’t feel terrible, either, and I guess that’s how normal people feel most of the time. They live in the space between black and white, and their ups and downs are various shades of gray, not the extreme highs and lows I’ve always thought of as normal. I think that’s one of the major differences between us and them, between addicts and Normies. Somewhere along the line we got stuck on this roller coaster that only knows how to go to the highest up and the lowest low. We get high so we can feel invincible and perfect, but the feeling never lasts. Gravity always wins, and we fall fast, to a place lower and darker than many people will probably ever know. And the crazy thing is that this is just normal for us. We cycle through these extremes all the time, and it’s become as natural as breathing. Exhausting, but natural. "

― Amy Reed , Clean

18 " The first week is the hardest. Then little by little the world opens up, and you realize there are all these people around you with their own needs that have nothing to do with you. Then you forget, and everything’s about you again. And maybe that cycle continues for the rest of your life. Maybe the world keeps expanding and contracting. Maybe you know you’re well when it finally stays the same size. "

― Amy Reed , Clean

19 " Getting rid of the drugs doesn’t get rid of all the other ways you learned to deal with the world. It’s not that easy. "

― Amy Reed , Clean

20 " ...and I know -I just know- you can remind me what it feels like to have someone look at me and love me with wanting me to be something else. "

― Amy Reed , Crazy