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1 " Angry thoughts swirl through my head, and I embrace the vitriol, knowing the pain that lurks beneath is infinitely more dangerous. "
― , Two Decisions, One Duty
2 " The shiny silver sports car gleams under the automatic lights, a fresh slash against the wound opened by that glossy cover. "
3 " Football has always been a constant. It never beguiled me and then disappeared. "
4 " The difference now is that I know Jace Dawson exists, and that knowledge has infiltrated every cell of my body and permanently altered me in a way neither time nor distance has managed to revert. "
5 " I look calm. Regal. Poised. But there’s an ineffaceable sorrow in my eyes that I study closely, trying to discern the exact cyan flecks conveying woe. "
6 " This is why I shouldn’t chug vodka. Because I can picture the worry in his gray eyes when he caught me. "
7 " The rhythmic battering against the sand is comforting; despite everything that’s so drastically different in my life from the one and only other time I’ve been here, the aquamarine ocean still looks exactly the same. "
8 " My breathing stutters. The sound of whooshing blood fills my ears. Heat floods my body. "
9 " He’s right. I didn’t think this through. For him; for me. I didn’t think about how reuniting would mean I’d have to say goodbye again. Mean I’d know I’m saying goodbye this time. "
10 " The expression on her face collides forcefully against the wall I’ve carefully constructed around my heart. She looks gutted. Wrecked. "
11 " She’s wearing a tight top and jeans, and her hair and make-up suggest she spent some serious time on her appearance. My stomach sinks. I’ve been around enough girls to know what that means. "
12 " Well, your last girlfriend did turn out to be a princess. That’s a lot of pressure for a first date.”“I’m having trouble remembering why I called you. "
13 " The greenery is lush, and the scenery is dotted by open-air villas surrounded by tall, thin trees. Turquoise water suddenly appears to the right, and I look over to the left to see a series of white-washed cottages rising out of the cliff that overlooks the sparkling water. "
14 " We sit in near silence side by side on the stones that surround the pool, warmed by the late afternoon sun. The only sound is the slow drip of water off our bare legs back into the pool. "
15 " The complicated pattern of dominos that tumbled to create this perfect moment won’t do so again. "
16 " From this vantage point the boat behind us is invisible, providing the illusion we’re flying across the sparkling blue water untethered. "
17 " The realization Jace is going to move on from this respite from reality where we get to flirt and kiss and touch is expected. It’s also devastating. "
18 " I’m frozen. I stare at him, and he stares back, and everyone else in the room stares at us. "
19 " It was one thing not to have any options. It’s worse to know that I do. "
20 " I stare out at the roiling, churning water, trying to make sense of the crushing calamity that just took place. I know it will take time to fully come to terms with it, but that’s not a luxury I have right now. "
