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" I wanted to start again. I wanted to make the same mistakes, love the
same people, fight the same enemies, befriend the same friends, marry the
same wives and sire the same sons. I wanted to live the same life again.
13I didn’t want the seat Rama has reserved for me in his heaven. I only
wanted my beautiful earth.
I knew such things were not going to happen. I was sixty, not sixteen. If I
lived, I would be a one-eyed, dirty, old beggar in some wayside temple,
with stinking, tattered clothes. A long way from what I once was. I wanted
to die now. I wanted this to end. I wanted to go away. Let the burning cities
take care of themselves. Let the Asuras fight their own wars and be
damned along with the Devas. I only wanted to return to my childhood
and start over again, every single damn thing, again and again and again… "
― Anand Neelakantan , Asura: Tale Of The Vanquished, The Story of Ravana and His People