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1 " Still... I would have hugged my mother if we were the kind of family who hugged. If touching her weren't impossible. If her subnightie waft was not so utterly, fatally repulsive. That's how much I loved her. "
― Jerry Stahl , Perv - A Love Story
2 " Happiness, to me, was no different than Mom's paprikalaced domino bars: something that looked sweet until you took a bite, and then made you want to vomit. "
3 " Sometimes what I did five minutes ago scared the fuck out of me five minutes later. "
4 " There's no deodorant for desperation. "
5 " ...it's not what people do, it's what they don't tell you they do. That's what hurts. That's what you think about when the television signs off and you're still bright-eyed and bushy-tailed. "
6 " It's different to miss somebody when they're still alive. When they die it's like, 'Okay, I'm sad.' You're supposed to be sad. When they just go away, when they disappear, that's a different thing. "
7 " Half the reason I turned into a writer is you didn't have to show up anywhere. You could work naked. "
8 " I wasn't sad after my father kissed the streetcar. If anything, it was a relief. Much as I missed him, his dying gave me an excuse to feel the way I already felt. Which was the way I felt right now, under the laundry room fluorescents: hollow, pissed off, wanting to be wherever I wasn't. Until I got there. Then I wanted to be somewhere else. "
9 " This was, I sometimes thought, the last gift my father gave me. And the best: His death stood out as the supreme-o excuse for fucking up, for being a successful fuck-up. "
10 " Booze has a different effect when you're, like, ten. Its doesn't round out the edges so much as wash you right out of the picture. "
11 " The second time I took acid, I watched myself in the mirror for nine hours. What I realized, when I stared, was that my face looked exactly the same when I cried as when I laughed. After awhile I couldn't tell which I was doing. Relief was just pain inside out. "
12 " There were mornings I thought drugs made me insane and mornings I thought they kept me from going that way. "
13 " In my family, misery didn't just love company, it wanted hostages. "
14 " This is, I believe, what happens when people take their own lives. They're not killing themselves, they're killing the world. Either to spare it pain or to cause it some, depending. "
15 " Sometimes I think life's nothin' but sittin' around watchin' pretty go bad. "
16 " There's two kinds of people, kid: the kind who pretend they are, and the kind who pretend they aren't. Take my advice and don't be neither. "
17 " That's the thing about people you loved. They disappeared on you. I didn't know much at the ripe old age of fifteen and a half. But, for better or worse, I knew that. "
18 " I have to admit, I wasn't close to my old man when he was alive. He was hardly ever home. But now that he was gone, and I was back in Pittsburgh, I thought about him all the time. I felt closer to the guy since he'd been buried than I ever did when he was walking around above ground. I realized how much I loved him. "
19 " A waft of sweet hash drifted by, and I wanted to float after it like Wimpy levitating at the scent of a hamburger. "
20 " As far as I could tell, life was nothing but a forced march down a mined highway. Even if you did everything you were supposed to do, sooner of later if was your turn to step on a claymore. "