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1 " The problem is caring too much, caring so much you can’t ask for help because everyone else is already in so much pain. "
― Seth Dickinson , Please Undo This Hurt
2 " Jesus, this world, this world. I feel so heartsick. I cannot even retch.And I dream of that awful board, piled with tokens moving each other by their own secret rules. A game of alien powers but those powers escape the game to move among us. They roam the world cow-eyed and compassionate and offer hands with fingers like fishhooks. We live in a paddock, a fattening pen, and we cannot leave it, because when we try to go the hooks say, Think of who you’ll hurt.So much hurt to try to heal. And the healing hurts too much. "
3 " Tired of doing hurt, and tired of taking it. Tired of the great cartographic project. Isn’t it a little like cartography? Meeting lovely people, mapping them, racing to find their hurts before they can find yours—getting use from them, squeezing them dry, and then striking first, unilaterally and with awful effect, because the alternative is waiting for them to do the same to you. These are the rules, you didn’t make them, they’re not your fault. So you might as well play to win. "
4 " First exhaustion, then shame, then callous cynicism. Then collapse. But I'm not there yet, I'm not past cynicism. I still want to help. "
5 " But that's a comfort, isn't it? That's enough. The story's still here. We go on. "
