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41 " There's a downside to everything, a dark side to everyone, and those who willingly walk in the shadows are a hell of a lot more convincing than those who only acknowledge the sunshine. "
― J.M. Darhower , Torture to Her Soul (Monster in His Eyes, #2)
42 " But love is anything but rational. Love is ugly, and messy. Love makes no fucking sense. And I love him, as impossible as that may be. "
43 " But sometimes nightmares are simply fueled by fear... fear of something we don't understand. A clown isn't scary when it takes off its makeup. A monster isn't so terrifying when you turn on the light. My enemy was my enemy until I looked inside of her and realized we weren't so different, after all. "
44 " Cooking out and hanging out aren't really my things," I admit. "I prefer delivery and solitude. "
45 " I've lived a lifeof darkness already, years where the sun didn't shine on me, and now that I've seen daylight again, Idon't think I could ever turn my back to it. "
46 " Because nobody is hopeless as long as they're still breathing. "
47 " It's fascinating, watching the surge inside of themmanifesting physically, relief sparking in their eyes when they think maybe, just maybe, they'll makeit.Maybe they'll live.Maybe they'll survive it.They never do. "
48 " Why am I with her? I don't know. I really don't. I'm with her simply because I want to be. Because I need to be. Because she needs me, I think, and if I'm being honest, I need her just as much. "
49 " I'm going to tell you something that a wise man once told me: it's not the darkness that's terrifying, it's what you might find in it. I was always afraid of the dark as a child, afraid monsters would sneak into my room at night, but now I know there's nothing to fear. Not because monsters don't exist. They do. I've seen them. I've encountered them. One attacked me as I slept. I even became one myself afterward. No, the reason there's nothing to fear in the dark is because real monsters lurk in the light, too. They hide in plain sight. The trick is to find them before they can get you. I'm not a good man. I'm not. I know...I've learned my lesson. I find peace in the darkness sometimes now. I find peace with her. I'll never forget, but she makes me feel like it's okay to remember. It's okay to remember the pain and fear. It's okay to admit the darkness terrified me. Because I found some light in it. I found her. "
50 " Tell me," I whisper, running my tongue along the shell of her ear. "Tell me how you want it to be. Tell me what you need from me."I'll give her anything.I'll tear my fucking chest open with my bare hands, rip out my heart and hand it to her, if that's what she needs.All she has to do is tell me.All she has to do is ask.She could bark out a million demands, and I would work myself to the death making them all happen, but instead she merely whispers, “I want you to love me.”So I do.I love her. "
51 " I don't know if she was born this goddamn fearless, if it's encoded in her DNA, gifted to her by her flawed bloodline, or if it's something life taught her, something molded into her all those years she was unknowingly on the run. I wonder if she got that from her father, or if it was me who caused her bravery. "
52 " It's hard to feel alive when you've been obliterated inside, hard to feel real when you no longer remember how to dream. "
53 " Everything I do, I do it in excess; everything I have, I have more of than I'll ever need. "
54 " What if we both can't win?" "I've already told you what happens then." "What?" "I give you the plank, Karissa." It takes a moment for her to understand. The Plank of Carneades. "
55 " I know their type. They smile too easily, welcome too warmly, their words as fake as the moansthey make when they let their little boyfriends play around between their thighs. "
56 " When you've got nothing left inside of you except for darkness, it becomes easier to snuff out somebody else's light. "
57 " No one is more grateful to be alive than someone who thought they were going to die. "
58 " Machiavelli believed it was better to be feared than loved, because attachment is easily severed, but the terror of pain is ever present. "
59 " You can't go back and change things once they're done. You can't rewrite history. Dwelling on it, wondering what could've been different, wondering how things might be in a perfect world, is a waste of time. Because this world isn't perfect, life isn't perfect, and it never will be. "
60 " Never take back something you meant. I'd rather you offend me intentionally if it's something you believe than lie to my face just to placate me. "