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1 " If love is like a possession, maybe my letter are like my exorcisms "
― Jenny Han , To All the Boys I've Loved Before (To All the Boys I've Loved Before, #1)
2 " I delete the picture of him from my phone; I delete his number. I think that if I just delete him enough, it will be like none of it ever happened and my heart won't hurt so badly "
3 " Do you think there's a difference? Between belonging with and belonging to? "
4 " It will get easier each time, I think. I hope. I just have to keep trying. "
5 " How was I supposed to know what’s real and what’s not? It feels like I’m the only one who doesn’t know the difference. "
6 " I hate change more than almost anything. "
7 " I wonder, though... what would it be like? To be that close to a boy and have him see all of you, no holding back. Would it be scary only for a second or two, or would it be scary the whole time? What if I didn't like it at all? Or what if I liked it too much? It's a lot to think about. "
8 " It was over before I even had a chance. "
9 " But you never said anything! Not one frigging word, Lara Jean!”Automatically I say, “Don’t say ‘frig.’ ”“Not one frigging word,” Kitty repeats with a shake of her head.Peter cracks up, and I give him a dirty look. “It all happened really fast,” he offers. “There was barely time to tell anybody—”“Was I talking to you?” Kitty snaps. “No, I don’t think so. I was talking to my sister.”Peter’s eyes widen, and I can see him trying to keep a straight face. "
10 " I don't think relationships are just physicality. There are ways to show you care about someone, not just using your lips... Or any other body part. "
11 " And for a second, just for a second I forget. I forget that this isn't real. "
12 " But what now? What am I supposed to do with all these feelings? "
13 " My favourite food is cake.What kind of cake?It doesn't matter. All cake. "
14 " I’ve never gotten a love letter before. But reading these notes like this, one after the other, it feels like I have. It’s like . . . it’s like there’s only ever been Peter. Like everyone else that came before him, they were all to prepare me for this. I think I see the difference now, between loving someone from afar and loving someone up close. When you see them up close, you see the real them, but they also get to see the real you. And Peter does. He sees me, and I see him. "
15 " I'm always wondering about the what-ifs, about the road not taken. "
16 " I say looking on the bright side of life never killed anybody. "
17 " I wonder, though…what would it be like? To be that close to a boy and have him see all of you, no holding back. "
18 " Love is scary: it changes; it can go away. That's the part of the risk. I don't want to be scared anymore. "
19 " Margot’s off shopping for new boots with her friend Casey, Daddy’s at work, and Kitty and I are lazing about watching TV when my phone buzzes next to me. It’s a text from Peter. "Movie tonight?" I text backyes, exclamation point. Then I delete the exclamation point for sounding too eager. Though without the exclamation point, the yes seems completely unenthused. I settle on a smiley face and press send before I canobsess over it further. "
20 " What must it be like, to have a boy like you so much he cries for you? "