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Wintergirls QUOTES

Wintergirls QUOTES

1 " We tilt our heads back and open wide. The snow drifts into our zombie mouths crawling with grease and curses and tobacco flakes and cavities and boyfriend/girlfriend juice, the stain of lies. For one moment we are not failed tests and broken condoms and cheating on essays; we are crayons and lunch boxes and swinging so high our sneakers punch holes in the clouds. For one breath everything feels better.
Then it melts.
The bus drivers rev their engines and the ice cloud shatters. Everyone shuffles forward. They don't know what just happened. They can't remember. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

2 " No, I am never setting foot in this house again it scares me and makes me sad and I wish you could be a mom whose eyes worked but I don't think you can. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

3 " I want to tell him that it's just a stupid car, but bits of me are scattered all over town; the graveyard, school, Cassie's room, the motel, and standing in from of the sink in my mother's kitchen. It takes too much energy to gather all the bits together, so I just sit there and watch him implode. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

4 " Dr. StupidParker says that when I'm sad it really means I'm angry and when I'm angry it really means I'm afraid. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

5 " I want to go to sleep and not wake up, but I don’t want to die. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

6 " If I had lady-spider legs, I would weave a sky where the stars lined up. Matresses would be tied down tight to their trucks, bodies would never crash through windshields. The moon would rise above the wine-dark sea and give babies only to maidens and musicians who had prayed long and hard. Lost girls wouldn't need compasses or maps. They would find gingerbread paths to lead them out of the forest and home again. They would never sleep in silver boxes with white velvet sheets, not until they were wrinkled-paper grandmas and ready for the trip. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

7 " Eating was hard.
Breathing was hard. Living was hardest. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

8 " Why are you being so mean?”
“Friends tell friends the truth.”
“Yeah, but not to hurt. To help. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

9 " There is no magic cure, no making it all go away forever. There are only small steps upward; an easier day, an unexpected laugh, a mirror that doesn't matter anymore. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

10 " I am beginning to measure myself in strength, not pounds. Sometimes in smiles. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

11 " Why?’ She nods. ‘She had everything: a family who loved her, friends, activities. Her mother wants to know why she threw it all away?’ Why you want to know why? Step into a tanning booth and fry yourself for two or three days. After your skin bubbles and falls off, roll in coarse salt, then put on long underwear woven from spun glass and razor wire. Over that goes your regular clothes, as long as they are tight.
Smoke gunpowder and go to school to jump through hoops, sit up and beg, and roll over on command. Listen to the whispers that curl into your head at night, calling you ugly and fat and stupid and bitch and whore and worst of all ‘A disappointment.’ Puke and starve and cut and drink because you need an anesthetic and it works. For a while. But then the anesthetic turns into poison and by then it’s too late because you are mainlining it now, straight into your soul. It is rotting you and you can’t stop. Look in a mirror and find a ghost. Hear every heartbeat scream that everythingsinglething is wrong with you. ‘Why?’ is the wrong question. Ask ‘Why not? "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

12 " I breathe in slowly. Food is life. I exhale, take another breath. Food is life. And that's the problem. When you're alive, people can hurt you. It's easier to crawl into a bone cage or a snowdrift of confusion. It's easier to lock everybody out.
But it's a lie. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

13 " I drift into the armpits of strangers, tasting their manic salt, and sleep to forget everything. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

14 " I want to eat like a normal person eats, but I need
to see my bones or I will hate myself even more and I
might cut out my heart or take every pill that was ever
made. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

15 " In one aspect, yes, I believe in ghosts, but we create them. We haunt ourselves. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

16 " Another page turns on the calendar, April now, not March.

.........

I am spinning the silk threads of my story, weaving the fabric of my world...I spun out of control. Eating was hard. Breathing was hard. Living was hardest.

I wanted to swallow the bitter seeds of forgetfulness...Somehow, I dragged myself out of the dark and asked for help.

I spin and weave and knit my words and visions until a life starts to take shape.

There is no magic cure, no making it all go away forever. There are only small steps upward; an easier day, an unexpected laugh, a mirror that doesn't matter anymore.

I am thawing. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

17 " I am angry that I starved my brain and that I sat shivering in my bed at night instead of dancing or reading poetry or eating ice cream or kissing a boy... "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

18 " Fracture lines etch the surface of the glass box as if a body fell from the sky and landed on it. He doesn't hear the impact, can't smell the blood. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

19 " And that’s the problem. When you’re
alive, people can hurt you. It’s easier to crawl into a bone
cage or a snowdrift of confusion. It’s easier to lock everybody
out.
But it’s a lie. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls

20 " I have to go. Boss has
this weird idea that I should actually work while he’s paying
me. "

― Laurie Halse Anderson , Wintergirls