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21 " I can't believe that I changed so little. I expected to look old and hollow and gray, but I guess it's only me on the inside that has shriveled and deteriorated. "
― Beatrice Sparks , Go Ask Alice
22 " I'm afraid to hope but I can't help it, and the idea of hoping in this most hopeless of all places makes me want to cry. "
23 " I've been asleep and I don't know if it's the same day or week or year, but who the hell cares anyway? "
24 " I'm partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing. Sometimes I think we're all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don't like them. "
25 " We get pissed off when someone tells us what to do, but we don't know what to do unless some fat bastard tell us. "
26 " I don’t want to get old. I have this very silly fear, dear friend, that one day I’ll be old, without ever having really been young. "
27 " I bet the pill is harder to get than drugs--which shows how screwed up this world really is! "
28 " This morning when I left Mom's parting words were, "Come straight home after school." Wow! Like I'm going to get stoned at 3:30—it doesn't sound so bad at that. "
29 " I'm partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing. Sometimes I think we're all trying to be shadows of each other... "
30 " Adolescents have a very rocky insecure time. Grown-ups treat them like children and yet expect them to act like adults. They give them orders like little animals, then expect them to react like mature, and always rational, self-assured persons of legal stature. "
31 " Tal vez ha sido bueno sufrir tanto, pues eso me hará más comprensiva y tolerante con el resto de la humanidad. "
32 " Antes pensaba que la única que sentía las cosas era yo, pero realmente no soy sino una parte infinitamente pequeña de la humanidad que sufre. "
33 " I wanted to ask God to help me but I could utter only words, dark, useless words which fell on the floor beside me and rolled off into the corners and underneath the bed. "
34 " I used to think I was the only one who felt things. but I really am only one infinitely small part of an aching humanity. It’s a good thing most people bleed on the inside or this would really be a gory, blood-smeared earth. "
35 " one day I'll be old, without ever having really been young "
36 " I think I'd better take some of Gramps' sleeping pills, I'm never going to be able to sleep without them. In fact I think I'd better take a supply of them. He's got plenty, and I'm sure I'll have a few bad nights at home before I get straightened out. Oh, I hope it's just a few. "
37 " Actually I don’t need the sleep as much as I need the escape. It’s a wonderful way to escape. I think I can’t stand it and then I just take a pill and wait for sweet nothingness to take over. At this stage in my life nothingness is a lot better than somethingness. "
38 " I wanted to tell them! I wanted more than anything in the world to know that they understood, but naturally they just kept on talking and talking because they are incapable of really understanding anything. If only parents would listen! If only they would let us talk instead of forever and eternally and continuously harping and preaching and nagging and correcting and yacking, yacking, yacking! But they won’t listen! They simply won’t or can’t or don’t want to listen, and we kids keep winding up back in the same old frustrating, lost, lonely corner with no one to relate to either verbally or physically. "
39 " It all seems so permanent, so old and new at the same time. But I wonder if I will ever feel completely new again. Or will I spend the rest of my life feeling like a walking disease? "
40 " How is it possible for me to be so miserable and embarrassed and humiliated and beaten and still function, still talk and smile and concentrate? "