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" No, Dan.”
“And you want me to go.”
I looked into his eyes. “No. I don’t.”
He moved closer, encouraged, and put his hand on my shoulder. “Then what do you want, Elle?”
“I want you not to have to settle,” I told him.
“Is that what you think I’m doing?”
“I know that’s what you’ll be doing. Because if you want more from me, you’re not going to get it.”
He said nothing for a long time. “When I readThe Little Prince, I thought you must be the rose. You with your four thorns, convincing me you’re able to defend yourself. But now I know you hate roses. So you must be the fox instead.
So maybe what you really want is for me to tame you.”
From a lot of men, that speech would have made me laugh, or roll my eyes. Then again, a lot of men wouldn’t have
read Antoine de Saint-Exupéry’s classic story ofThe Little Prince, or bothered to try and understand it.
I reached for his hand and held it between both of mine. “The fox tells the Little Prince he is a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. Just like the flower was like a hundred thousand other flowers.”
Dan tucked a strand of hair behind my ear with the hand I wasn’t holding. “But the fox asked the prince to tame him.
To make it so they’d need each other and be unique to each other. And he did it.”
“And then the prince went away, Dan, and left the fox bereft.” I looked down at my hands, holding his.
“Would you be sad if I left you?” He asked me, and at first I wasn’t sure how I would reply.
At last the answer came on breath as tremulous as a breeze wafting curtains from an open window.
“Yes. I would.”
He squeezed my hand. “Then I won’t. "
― Megan Hart , Dirty (Dan and Elle, #1)
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" Still staring at the woman in the mirror, I hung up the phone. She looked as if she was going to cry. I felt bad for her, that woman with the dark hair, the one who only ever wore black and white. The one who might have been pretty if she'd only take care of herself, if only she weren't smarter, if only she didn't earn more money. I felt sorry for her but envied her, too, because she, at least, could cry and I could not. "
― Megan Hart , Dirty (Dan and Elle, #1)