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Last Night I Sang to the Monster QUOTES

Last Night I Sang to the Monster QUOTES

1 " Rafael?”
”Yeah?”
„Do we all have monsters?”
„Yes.”
„Why does God give us so many monsters?”
„You want to know my theory?”
„Sure.”
„I think it’s other people who give us monsters. Maybe God doesn’t have anything to do with it. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

2 " Summertime. It was a song. It was a season. I wondered if that season would ever live inside of me. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

3 " What is this thing you call substance abuse?
All I wanna do is forget and get loose.
Drinking and smoking over and over
What's so great about a life that's sober?

There's nothing cool about being young
When the monsters of night have stolen the sun.

I'm tired of searching for words in the sky.
All I wanna do is drink and die.
Nothing is real. It's all a big lie.
All I wanna do is drink and die.

There's nothing cool about being young
When the monsters of night have stolen the sun. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

4 " See, the thing about that word, Sharkey, the F-word, is that sometimes I make that word do too much work. I mean, I say that word as if it clearly articulates what I’m really feeling. And it doesn’t. It’s a shortcut. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

5 " I think the therapists around this place think that if you know yourself, then somehow you’ll be better and healthier and you’ll be able to leave this place and live out your days as a happy and loving human being. Happy. Loving. I hate those words. I’m supposed to like them. I’m supposed to want them. I don’t. Don’t like them, don’t want them. This is the way I see it: if you get to know yourself really well, you might discover that deep down inside you’re just a dirty, disgusting, and selfish piece of shit. What if my heart is all rotted out and corrupted? What about that? What am I supposed to do with that information? Just tell me that. Most of the time I get the feeling that I’m just an animal disguised as an eighteen-year-old guy. At least I’m hoping that maybe deep down inside I’m a coyote. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

6 " I have it in my head that when we’re born, God writes things down on our hearts. See, on some people’s hearts he writes happy and on some people’s hearts he writes sad and on some people’s hearts he writes crazy and on some people’s hearts he writes genius and on some people’s hearts he writes angry and on some people’s hearts he writes winner and on some people’s hearts he writes loser. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

7 " I wish I didn’t have a heart that God wrote Sad on. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

8 " But the thing is, I didn't make my friends happy and they didn't make me happy. All we did was get stoned out of our minds. That didn't have anything to do with happiness. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

9 " I’m not a good kid. Yeah, look, I’m just a piece of paper with the word sad and a bunch of cuss words written on it.
A lousy piece of paper. That’s me.
A piece of paper that’s waiting to be torn up. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

10 " I wondered what it was like to feel whole, to not feel torn up or stunned out or wigged out or any of those things. I wondered what it was like to walk around the world looking up at the sky instead of searching the ground, eye to eye with things that crawled. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

11 " What did being connected to the world get you? It got you sadder. Look, the world is not sane. If you stay connected to an insane world, well, you just go crazy. This is not a complicated theory. It's just simple logic. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

12 " I’d rather have a cup of coffee and a cigarette than live in all that honesty. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

13 " Breakfast seemed to be a good time for throwing your emotions around. Jodie said that at this place emotions were like Frisbees – people just tossed them around all day long like they were at a park. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

14 " I have this idea stuck in my head that you have to be born beautiful in order to dream beautiful things. God didn't write beautiful on my heart. I'm stuck with all my bad dreams. Bad dreams for bad boys. I guess that's the way it is for me. Look, there's nothing I can do about it. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

15 " That was the first time I did coke.
My body, it was electric. For the first time in my life I felt as if I had a real heart and a real body and I knew that there was this fire in me that could have lit up the entire universe. No book had ever made me feel that way. No human being had ever made me feel like that. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

16 " I mean, okay, let's say we're all going to get better. Let's just pretend we will. Fine. Where are we going to go after we get better? What are we going to do with all of our newfound healthy behaviors? Back out into the world that screwed us up and screwed us over. This does not sound promising. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

17 " The heart can get really cold if all you've known is winter. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

18 " When I walked into the house, I went in search of one of my dad's bottles. Not that they were that hard to find. He hid bottles all over the house. I knew where they all were. That was one of my hobbies, finding where my dad hid his bottles. It was my version of looking for Easter eggs. In my house, Easter lasted forever. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

19 " Adam says I isolate. He is addicted to telling me that I spend too much time in my head. It’s an unhealthy behavior. Look, I don’t see how not bothering other people with your screwed-up vision of the world constitutes unhealthy behavior. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster

20 " One of my roommates, Rafael, he's an expert on monsters. Not that he talks about them. I can just tell. People who have monsters recognize each other. They know each other without even saying a word. "

― Benjamin Alire Sáenz , Last Night I Sang to the Monster