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21 " She was not in a position to complain about this life, not yet. Probably not ever. "
― Chris Pavone , The Expats (Kate Moore, #1)
22 " She began to sacrifice that old identity to live in her new one. It was the new life, after all, that everyone wanted. "
23 " Plus she had to admit that a small part of her secrecy was that she was holding something back, for herself. If she never told Dexter the truth, she was still reserving the right to return to her old life. To one day be a covert operative again. To be a person who could keep the largest secrets from everyone, including her husband, forever. "
24 " So she forgave him. And instead she berated herself for her suspicion, for her snooping. For the things she promised herself she wouldn't do, the feelings she wouldn't have. "
25 " What she did know, unfortunately, was that she had to reconsider everything she'd ever willed herself to believe about her husband. "
26 " He laughed again, red-faced and moist-looking, at another unfunny comment. He was either drunk or an idiot. Possibly both. "
27 " Whatever her husband had done, it couldn't be as bad as what she herself had done. "
28 " That was not her husband; she knew him, and that was not him. But of course she didn’t really know him. "
29 " She loved him so much. Even when she hated him. "
30 " She stared at this first bit of positive proof, the entrance to the rabbit hole from which she might never reemerge. "
31 " But when Kate returned home he was gone. Back to the video camera that had recorded her. Back to his unexplainable office. Back to his secret phone, his unfamiliar contacts, his fifty million stolen euros. Back to his other life. "
32 " A liar doesn't want to think that other people are liars, because then the other people should suspect her of lying too, because she is, and she'll get caught. "
33 " There was a guy with extra millions in the bank. And he spent all his free time, all his energy, spending his money. His cars, his houses, his vacations. Just like the rich bankers here in Luxembourg, whose business was making money and whose passion was spending it. "
34 " This had been part of her training, part of her career, part of herself: whatever was going on, live like a normal person. Do normal things, see normal people. Don't give anyone a reason to question you, investigate you. Don't give them any meaningful answers to prying questions that might be asked after you've disappeared. Don't create any suspicion that you were not who you claimed to be. "
35 " It was becoming difficult to separate her own decisions from those made by others, for her, on behalf of themselves. "
36 " People will think we're having an affair," Kate said. She took a seat next to Bill on the cold slats of treated wood."That would be better than the truth. "
37 " Circumstantial evidence may not be enough to convict. But it’s almost always enough to reveal the truth. Isn’t it? "
38 " As they’d agreed the night before on their cold balcony, scripting out this dialog, there would be three large lies in this conversation. This was the first. "
39 " So tell me how you think this ends. "
40 " The two men maintain firm eye contact. A poker game, both of them bluffing. Or pretending to. "