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21 " I knew how to make him angry and how to make him laugh, and I hoped I could make him happy. "
― Alexis Hall , Boyfriend Material (London Calling, #1)
22 " The conversation hadn’t so much died on us as been taken out back and shot in the head. And I knew I should be playing paramedic but I couldn’t quite bring myself to or work out how. "
23 " Mum patted him reassuringly. “Oh, Oliver … I am sure you are one of the best gays.”I glanced back to find Oliver looking faintly flustered. “Mum, stop ranking homosexuals. It doesn’t work like that. "
24 " These weren’t just yeah whatever kisses. They weren’t take it or leave it, get your coat you’ve pulled kisses. They were everything I thought I could never have, everything I’d been pretending I never wanted, telling me that I was worth it, that he’d be there for me and put up with me and wouldn’t let me drive him away. Oliver Blackwood was giving all that to me, and I was giving it right back. In the clutch of hands and the press of bodies and the urgent heat of his mouth on mine. "
25 " In any case, I wasn’t prepared for the truth of you. "
26 " Someone else’s actions may affect you. But what other people choose to do is about them.” We were both quiet for a moment.. “Will it…will it ever stop hurting?” “Non.” Mum shook her head. “But it will stop mattering. "
27 " It's hard for me to understand why anyone wouldn't want you in their life. "
28 " And I was pretty sure this was how love felt: fuzzy and scary and confusing and light enough to whisk you away like a Tesco’s bag on the wind. "
29 " I was a cagey, grumpy, paranoid mess who would find a way to ruin even the most basic human interaction. "
30 " It is true. You should never let anyone tell you it is wrong to be how you are. "
31 " I’d lost whatever capacity I ever had to relate to people in a romantic way. "
32 " But you had a boyfriend, and he made you happy for a while, and now it is over. And if we let happy things make us unhappy when they stopped, there would be no point having happy things. "
33 " Explain to me again,” said Oliver finally, “why you need a boyfriend?”It was the least I owed him. “Mainly for this big fundraiser we’ve got coming up at the end of April. Our donors all think I’m a bad gay.”He frowned. “What’s a good gay?”“Someone like you.”“I see. "
34 " I’m conscious this could be rather burdensome to hear, but you remain the thing I have most chosen for myself. The thing that’s most exclusively mine. The one that brings me the deepest joy. "
35 " Its just easier to push people away than watch them leave "
36 " This was why relationships sucked: they made you need shit you’d been perfectly happy not needing. And then they took them away. "
37 " I’ve never seen the point of fancy dress parties. You have two choices: either you make a massive effort and wind up looking like a dick, or you make no effort and wind up looking like a dick. And my problem, as always, was not knowing what kind of dick I wanted to be. "
38 " I think what you're underestimating here is how much better I can get and still be a complete disaster. "
39 " You are wonderful. But you need to believe that I don't like you in spite of all... all of that. I like you because you're you, and all of that is part of you.... And, anyway, I don't like you - I mean, I do like you, but you should probably know that I love you as well. "
40 " I’m, like, the opposite of a rock star.” “A scissors planet? "