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1 " If they didn't want to know, they shouldn't have asked. "
― James Webb , Fields of Fire
2 " You know what we've lost, William? We've lost a sense of responsibility, at least on the individual level. We have too many people like Mark who believe that the government owes them total, undisciplined freedom. If everyone thought that way, there would be no society. We're so big, so strong now, that people seem to have forgotten that a part of our strength comes from each person surrendering a portion of his individual urges to the common good. And the common good is defined by who wins at the polls, and the policies they make. Like it or lump it. "
3 " My war is not as simple as yours was, Father. People seem to question their obligation to serve on other than their own terms. But enough of that. I fight because we have always fought. It doesn't matter who. "
4 " Self-discipline is never simple. "
5 " He could understand, condone the massive use of force, but the terrors of its particularizations horrified him. "
6 " They stared fondly at each other, remembering simpler days of unclouded idealism. Goodrich shook his head. “Solomon, you son of a bitch! What are you doing here?” Mark smiled exasperatedly, almost defensively. “I’ve been lonely for my family. Then I heard you were back. That did it. I came down. "
7 " Don’t ask me how. I can’t tell you.” The secrecy seemed to make Mark uncomfortable. “I just spent a night with my parents at a motel near the campus. It was a good place. There were a lot of students and I didn’t stick out. And I know they’re watching my home.” “Who?” Mark darkened. “The pigs.” There were brushings on the living room carpet, faint clacks on the kitchen floor, and Goodrich’s mother appeared. She peered at Mark as if he were a visiting ghoul from some earlier life. "
8 " I look at you and feel so old, Will. It’s been a hundred years of misery, all this. I feel ancient.” Goodrich sought to brighten him, falling back on their old pattern of challenge and retort as naturally as if it were two years before. “You are ancient, Mark. The suffering Jew.” He laughed, chiding his old roommate. “Duty-bound to suffer over wrongs. Perceived or otherwise. "
9 " You know what makes me the maddest?” Mark seemed confused and somewhat sullen. He took out his pipe and began to pack it from a leather pouch. “That I have to act like a criminal. "
10 " Like a MURDERER, for God’s sake! I have to sneak around and hide and always fear I’ll be discovered, every time I cross the magic boundary line between sanctity and rabidity. I have to act like a MURDERER just because I refused to participate in MURDER. You tell me the sense in that!” He lit his pipe. It seemed to calm him. “But, yes. I do get lonely. I miss my family. I’d like to be able to come over to your house like this and visit you every day, without having to sneak back and bang on your window. "
11 " Mark had obviously contemplated it and rejected it. He was livid. “And why should I go to jail? Am I a criminal? Have I hurt anyone "
12 " Am I bad?” He puffed angrily on his pipe. “Why does the law create such absurdities?” He snorted. “The law. The law is an ass. Someone famous said that, once. Dickens, I think.” He looked up to Goodrich. “And it is. It doesn’t respond anymore. It’s a straitjacket. What kind of coercion is it when your alternatives are to kill or to go to jail? "
13 " In the living room Goodrich’s father sat in a large chair across from the sofa, motionless. He appeared very tired. His mother stood nervously behind the chair, obviously dreading his entrance into the room. "
14 " She had clothed herself, even at near-midnight, and brushed her platinum hair. “Where’s Mark?” His father eyed him tiredly. “He’s gone.” His mother kneaded the fabric of the chair in both her hands. “Oh, you have to tell him, Peter. You can’t just say that.” “All right.” His father stared straight ahead for another long moment, precisely into nothing "
15 " In the living room Goodrich’s father sat in a large chair across from the sofa, motionless. He appeared very tired. His mother stood nervously behind the chair, obviously dreading his entrance into the room. She had clothed herself, even at near-midnight, and brushed her platinum hair. “Where’s Mark?” His father eyed him tiredly. “He’s gone.” His mother kneaded the fabric of the chair in both her hands. “Oh, you have to tell him, Peter. You can’t just say that.” “All right.” His father stared straight ahead for another long moment, precisely into nothing with "
16 " Goodrich eyed his parents with growing awareness. “How did the police find him?” “I called them.” They peered into each other’s faces for a long, mute moment, Goodrich pondering absently that he was looking into a mirror that reflected how he himself would appear in another forty years, if he somehow managed to survive the insanity that Vietnam had brought him and live that long. "
17 " His father continued. “He should have known I would do it. In a way, I think he did know. He acted almost as if he expected it when he saw them. The only thing he said was—” “What did he say?” His father smiled faintly, almost daring to be amused. “He said, ‘So it’s time to come and lock the savage up.’ How about that? ‘The savage.’ ” “How could you do something like that, Dad?” Goodrich dropped "
18 " His father peered solemnly at him. “It doesn’t take a martinet. You act like the boy did nothing more than steal a stick of bubble gum from some department store. To my mind, he committed the ultimate crime, Son. He rejected the society that nourished him.” He softened a bit, eyeing his son. “It wasn’t an easy thing for me to do, Will. I like Mark. But I can’t forget what he’s done and I can’t ignore it. He did it willingly, with his eyes open, "
19 " and he has flaunted the law by coming here from Canada.” “I can’t believe this.” Goodrich was nearing tears. “He hasn’t harmed anyone, Dad. He was only following his conscience. You have to respect him for that. It isn’t easy.” “Then respect me, too. I’m only following mine. And you’re wrong about the harm, Son. He’s harming a whole nation. Those people have no sense of country. They don’t look beyond themselves. That’s as far as their obligation goes. "
20 " You know what we’ve lost, William? We’ve lost a sense of responsibility, at least on the individual level. We have too many people like Mark who believe that the government owes them total, undisciplined freedom. If everyone thought that way, there would be no society. We’re so big, so strong now, that people seem to have forgotten that a part of our strength comes from each person surrendering a portion of his individual urges to the common good. And the common good is defined by who wins at the polls, and the policies they make. Like it or lump it. "