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1 " Both fictions and memories are recalled and retold. They're both forms of stories. Stories are the way we learn. Stories are how we understand each other. "
― Iain Reid , I'm Thinking of Ending Things
2 " Sometimes a thought is closer to truth, to reality, than an action. You can say anything, you can do anything, but you can't fake a thought. "
3 " School is the place we all have to go. There is potential. School is about the future. Looking forward to something, progression, growing, maturing. It's supposed to be safe here, but is has become the opposite. It feels like a prison. "
4 " I think a lot of what we learn about others isn’t what they tell us. It’s what we observe. People can tell us anything they want. "
5 " It hurts, all of it, but we feel nothing. "
6 " Seeing someone with their parents is a tangible reminder that we're all composites. "
7 " Jake always liked his books and stories. And writing in his diaries. It was a comfort for him. He could work through things that way.”“That’s nice. I’ve noticed he still likes to write. He spends a lot of time writing.”“That’s how he makes sense of the world. "
8 " A memory is its own thing each time it's recalled. It's not absolute. Stories based on actual events often share more with fiction than fact. Both fictions and memories are recalled and retold. They're both forms of stories. Stories are the way we learn. Stories are how we understand each other. But reality happens only once. "
9 " Maybe that’s how we know when a relationship is real. When someone else previously unconnected to us knows us in a way we never thought or believed possible. "
10 " Isn’t that why we commit to another? It’s not for sex. If it were for sex, we wouldn’t marry one person. We’d just keep finding new partners. We commit for many reasons, I know, but the more I think about it, the more I think long-term relationships are for getting to know someone. "
11 " Maybe the end was written right from the beginning."(P. 1) "
12 " I should have told someone. But I didn’t. I didn’t think it was anything significant until it was. "
13 " The wave changed everything. It had an effect of malice, as if he were suggesting I could never be completely on my own, that he would be around, that he would be back. I was suddenly afraid. The thing is, that feeling is just as real to me now as it was then. The visuals are just as real. "
14 " When you become aware of your heart, you want it to stop beating. You need a break from the constant rhythm, a rest. "
15 " It’s amazing that relationships can form and last under the constraints of never fully knowing. Never knowing for sure what the other person is thinking. Never knowing for sure who a person is. "
16 " What if it doesn't get better? What if death isn't an escape? "
17 " We accept, reject, and discern through symbols. These are as important to our understanding of life, our understanding of existence and what has value, whats worthwhile, as math and science ... it's all part of how we work through things, how we make decisions. "
18 " We never really know someone else's thoughts. And it's thoughts that count. Thought is reality. Actions can be faked. "
19 " Reality only happens once."(P. 48) "
20 " I’m thinking of ending things.Once this thought arrives, it stays. It sticks. It lingers. It dominates. There’s not much I can do about it. Trust me. It doesn’t go away. It’s there whether I like it or not. It’s there when I eat. When I go to bed. It’s there when I sleep. It’s there when I wake up. It’s always there. Always.I haven’t been thinking about it for long. The idea is new. But it feels old at the same time. When did it start? What if this thought wasn’t conceived by me but planted in my mind, predeveloped? Is an unspoken idea unoriginal? Maybe I’ve actually known all along. Maybe this is how it was always going to end. "