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1 " Did you know you have the chance to be the first black queen in Campbell history?”I swallow. I did know that. Of course I know that. But I don’t like it being held against me. I don’t like the implication in her tone.You could make history if you just follow our rules.You could be a real credit to your people if you just straighten up and fly right.You could actually be worth something if you would shut up and take what we give you. "
― Leah Johnson , You Should See Me in a Crown
2 " I'm not sure why it makes me feel weird to know that people are playing something I had a hand in creating, but it does. It feels too public somehow, like this thing that I do on my own to stay sane doesn't belong completely to me anymore, or something. "
3 " Someone once told meYou spent your life running.Well, I wish you'd stand still,'Cause in this light you're stunning.It's my life, my story,And I want to share it with you.It's my life, my story,But part of it was always yours too. "
4 " Just because it could be worse doesn't mean you don't get to acknowledge how much it sucks, you know. "
5 " I'm not sure why it makes me feel weird to know that people something I had a hand in creating, but it does. It feels too public somehow, like this thing that I do on my own to stay sane doesn't belong completely to me anymore, or something. "
6 " Girls will run for queen, and boys will run for king-there's definitely no accounting for people who might not identify as either. And the hardest for me to ignore, same-sex couples aren't allowed to attend together. We can dance with each other once they get there, maybe, if no chaperones care enough to stop them, but they can't officially go as dates. And just in case they hadn't made their prejudice clear enough if your gender identity doesn't explicitly align with the one you were assigned at birth you can't come dressed the way you might want. Girls wear dresses and the boys's wear tuxes. And that's the end of it. The whole thing royally sucks in my opinion. "
7 " I never needed this race, or a hashtag, or the king to be a queen. I was born royalty. All I had to do was pick up my crown. "
8 " And I know then what I've always known: Campbell is never going to make a space for me to fit. I'm going to have to demand it. "
9 " Silence and shame aren’t the same thing—not by a longshot. But sometimes silence is simpler. "
10 " I’ve never felt quite like this though. Like I don’t know if I’m running away from something or to it. All I know is that I’m tired, so incredibly tired, of having to run at all. "
11 " The thing about anxiety is that it looks different for everyone. I mean, yeah, of course there are some threads that run through all of us that mark us as, you know, anxious people: being restless, exhausted, just plain fidgety. But it’s the nuances that change the game. "
12 " I try to channel the confidence of a mediocre white man in a boardroom: untouchable. "
13 " I’ve learned all the ways to keep my head down, to hide, to make myself scarce. But I never really learned how to say when enough was a enough. Until now. "
14 " I kiss her with everything I have. Like I'll never kiss her again. Because this is real, we finally made it to this place, and it's better than any fairy tale. Because I'm done letting people stop me. Because here, always, we deserve this good thing. "
15 " When you already feel like everything about you makes you stand out, it just makes more sense to find as many ways to blend in as you can. "
16 " Don’t worry. I’ll be your personal Uncle Iroh, offering sage advice along the way.”“I’m sorry, did you just make an Avatar the Last Airbender reference to me? "
17 " I nod anyway because honestly, if I'm gonna die, I want to die having said yes to her as many times as I can. "
18 " I never needed this race or a hashtag or the king to be a queen. I was born royalty. All I had to do was pick up my crown. "
19 " High school is complicated, and the lines of demarcation that The Breakfast Club said divided us aren’t quite so clean-cut. The athletes are also the smart kids; the theater kids are also the presidents of the student council. But there’s still those outliers. The people who are everywhere but fit nowhere. "
20 " When you thought you might never have something again, when it comes back to you, it’s somehow a hundred times better than you remember. "