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41 " I know that it’s reaching but I just want to leave your name on a page somewhere and never need to come back to it. "
― Trista Mateer , Honeybee
42 " I know I said some things about needing space, but you are not the moon or the sun, a planet or a dwarf star. I do not know if distance from you will ever sit right with me. "
43 " I couldn't sleep last night becayse I don't know what you eat for breakfast anymore. I don't know if you still wear my old clothes or if you threw them out when you threw me out. "
44 " I read somewhere that it's okay to miss people even if you don't want them in your life anymore;and I hope that's true. "
45 " I’ve gotten so good about not flinching at the sound of your name that people don’t know I’d still throw myself mouth-open into the ocean for the chance to drown somewhere you might see it. "
46 " You used to reach for me like sugar cubes, but now you keep your distance— there is that word again. It plagues me, follows me around, digs itself under my skin and it stays there when you will not; and you are never under my skin anymore "
47 " I turned myself inside out over the phone, read you the words etched on my bones and I hoped for once they might settle your heart instead of speeding it up. And I know—I know I have a heart like a wild thing with snapping jaws and matted fur but I’d hang up my hands on hooks for you, pluck out all of my sharp teeth for the chance to be easy "
48 " Love was a museum where we took down the art that was there before us and playedmasterpiece with all the empty space. "
49 " When I met you,I was somethingsmall and whole.I do not know howto get back there. "
50 " My worth is not defined by a man and neither is yours "
51 " You were born hungry, baby.You were born with an open mouth and empty hands.You came into this life with a starving heart.I know better than anyone that you cannot fill it with fence posts or china patterns.All those replaceable things they say add up to a good life. "
52 " You were right when you said I've only had bad examples of love. I grew up thinking that it was a chore, that it did not have to be easy, that it was okay to be hard. But our was the exchange that defined "love" for me: unconditional even when it was distanced, never arrogant, always kind. "
53 " I Have A Postcard MouthAll it ever says is:wish you were here. "
54 " When I met you, I was something small and whole. I do not know how to get back there. "
55 " For Everyone I Meet With Your Name I’m sorry. "
56 " You may have been part of the healing but you don’t get to be a part of what’s healed. "
57 " A Brief Note On BiphobiaI’m notgoing through a phaseusing it as a stepping stonemore likely to cheat onyou just greedysecretly actually gaysecretly actually straightinherently also polyamorouspromiscuous because of my sexualityonly into and always up for threesomesstill trying to make up my mindattracted to all genders equallyattracted to anything that movesexperiencing less discriminationbenefitting from “passing privilege”more likely to spread STDsheterosexual while I’m dating a manhomosexual while I’m dating a womantransphobicor confusedbut I amtired "