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1 " I've never looked forward before. I've always looked back. I think about the past way too much and I think about what I should have done and everything I did wrong and I've never once looked forward in my life. "
― Colleen Hoover , Losing Hope (Hopeless, #2)
2 " Les, I want to kiss her so fucking bad, but I'm too scared. I'm scared if I kiss her too soon, it'll feel like every other kiss she's ever received. She'll feel nothing. I don't want her to feel nothing when I kiss her. I want her to feel everything. "
3 " I wonder if it's possible for people to fall in love with a person one characteristic at a time, or if you fall for the entire person at once. "
4 " I want to kiss her and make love to her and marry her and make her have my babies and I want it all to happen tonight . But then we'll be out of firsts, and the firsts are the best part. Good thing I'm patient. "
5 " You did everything you could, but sometimes all the love in the world from mothers and brothers isn't enough to help pull someone out of their nightmare. We just need to accept that things are what they are, and all the guilt and regret in the world can't change that. "
6 " As soon as the words leave her mouth, I'm completely consumed by a sense of peace. For the first time since the second she was taken away from me, I finally know what forgiveness feels like. "
7 " She gave the word devastated a whole new meaning. I truly believed, at that point, that the word devastated should be reserved for mothers.I no longer believe that.The word devastated should be reserved for brothers, too. "
8 " I've learned over the past years what it really means to be able to miss someone. In order to miss someone, that means you were privileged enough to have them in your life to begin with. And while seventeen years doesn't seem like near enough time to have spent with you over the course of a lifetime, it's still seventeen more years than the people that never knew you at all. So if I look at it that way ... I'm pretty damn lucky. I'm the luckiest brother ever in the whole wide world. "
9 " But I’ve learned over the past year what it really means to be able to miss someone. In order to miss someone, that means you were privileged enough to have them in your life to begin with. "
10 " I'm gonna go live my life now, Les. A life I'm actually able to look forward to, and I'd honestly thought I'd never be able to say that. Then again, I'd honestly thought I'd always be hopeless, but I find hope every single day. "
11 " What time should I come stalk you tomorrow?”“Six-thirty?” She says breathlessly.“Six-thirty sounds good.” Six-thirty is my new favoritetime of day. "
12 " Just seeing her again, even from a distance, reminds meof why I crave to be around her so much. It’s only been afew days, but since the moment I met her, no matter where I am, I’m constantly wondering about her. My attention is constantly homed in on her like I’m a compass and she’s my North. "
13 " She doesn’t even tell me it’ll be okay when every single ounce of whatever was left inside my chest is propelled out of me the moment I realize that the very best part of me is dead. "
14 " But everything wrong with her is everything that draws me in and makes her perfect. She’s flat-out rude to me and I love it. She’s stubborn and I love it. "
15 " You would think a person could only die once. You would think you would only find you sister's lifeless body once. You would think you would only have to watch your mother's reaction once after finding out her only daughter is dead.Once is so far from accurate.It happens repeatedly.Every single time I close my eyes I see Les's eyes. Every time my mother looks at me, she's watching me tell her that her daughter is dead for the second time. For the third time. For the thousandth time. Every time I take a breath or blink or speak, I experience her death all over again. I don't sit here and wonder if the fact that she's dead will ever sink in. I sit here and wonder when I'll stop having to watch her die. "
16 " Every time shespeaks or smiles or, God forbid, laughs . . . my heart reacts like it’s been sucker-punched. I hate it and like it and somehow have become addicted to it. Every time she speaks, the sucker-punch in my chest reminds me that there’s still something there. "
17 " All those nights you held me and just let me cry . . . you have no idea how manytimes you’ve already saved me. "
18 " I've loved Hope since we were kids. But tonight? Tonight I fell in love with Sky. "
19 " But I'm not falling in love with her piece by piece anymore. I'm in love with the whole girl. Every single piece of her. "
20 " Fuck all the firsts, Sky. The only thing that matters to me with you are the forevers. "