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1 " Let me in. Let me be here for everything, all the good, all the bad. All your light and all your dark. "
― Karina Halle , Bad at Love
2 " As if he can hear my thoughts, Laz pulls me closer. “By the way, I fuck better than I dance,” he whispers in my ear. “Better than I sing. Better than I write. Better than I do most things.” He brushes my hair off my shoulder and slowly licks up the side of my neck before his lips come together right behind my ear. “Bet you didn’t know that about me. How much I love to fuck and how good I am at it. "
3 " People are fucked up and complicated and sometimes it’s just a matter of finding someone else as fucked up and complicated as you. Sometimes that’s all you need for love to work. "
4 " This shift that grows bigger and bigger each day, like two fault-lines sliding against each other, inches at first until, over time, you can’t bridge the gap. You can only fall into the void between the people you used to be to each other.Marina will never stop being everything to me. She always was. But now…she’s becoming more. She’s no longer a part of my life, she is my life. "
5 " who needs an entourage of people when I only need one. "
6 " If you don’t believe you’re worthy of love you’ll never know what to do with love when you get it. "
7 " I want to find a guy. I want to fall in love. I want a future with someone, maybe marriage and babies, maybe right now all I need is to have someone’s arms around me as I fall asleep. I want love. I feel it’s absence in my life, every day.”You’re breaking my heart, sweet girl.Her words are gutting me right now. Here in my car, Marina is opening up her soul to me in ways she hasn’t before and I’m…floored by it.I want her to have all that. I want her to know that…fuck. I love her. I care for her. As a friend though, and I know that’s not what she’s talking about. "
8 " I can’t do the friend thing anymore either,” he says, “even though you’re still my best one. And I don’t want to just fuck you, though I have to say, I love fucking you. I want you to be mine, through and through. Mine and only mine.”“You’re sure?”“Never been so sure of something in all my life.” He says to me. “And it feels bloody good. "
9 " I love you. I’ve always loved you. And I am absolutely, brilliantly in love with you. "
10 " After my mother died, there wasn’t a day that went by that I didn’t think about her, didn’t miss her. Not just missing her but aching for her. The love she gave, the space she filled in my life. My mother was everything to me and she continued to be everything afterward, even though she was no longer with us. My heart bled and burned with the same kind of intensity as it loved. "
11 " It was bloody spiritual is what it was and believe me, I am not a praying man. But I will make this woman my religion if she lets me. I will worship at her altar for another glimpse at the heaven I saw last night. "
12 " I wish it was as easy as this”“As what?”“You and me. Talking. I wish the guys I dated got me the same way that you get me.”He grows silent for a moment and I look over at him. He’s frowning, his attention focused on the road. “Maybe you’re just dating the wrong guys,” he finally says. "
13 " I’ve actively worked hard to see Laz as a friend and just a friend, all the while it would have been so incredibly easy to just give in and just admit to myself that I want him. Not just as a friend, though. Not even close. "
14 " His body pressed against mine, our mouths joined, the heat we created, that felt right. That felt more than right. That’s the us that should have always been. "
15 " Marina.Her eyes, her skin, her lips.Her fucking soul, that pure light that comes from within her, shines through all that darkness that shrouds her. I feel like I’m one step closer to possessing it, something I never knew I needed. "
16 " This man is no longer just my friend. He’s no longer my Laz in that sense. He’s a man that I’m giving my heart over to, whether he knows it or not, whether I want to or not. There’s no reasoning, no deciding. It’s done. "
17 " I want to feel him again, taste him again, hold him again. I want to see what he can do when we’re both free of restraints, free of the lines we’ve drawn up around each other but never dared to cross. "
18 " I just want you, Laz. I have…feelings for you. Big ones. And I can’t go back to just being your friend again. "
19 " Well he’s my weirdo,” Marina tells him with a proud smile. “That’s why we work so well together. If I have a bit of advice for you Noah, it’s you need to find your weirdo. Once you do, everything else falls into place. "
20 " I’m trying not to let the hope shine out of my chest. "