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41 " He was going to kiss me. He was going to touch me. He was going to taste me. He was going to fuck me "
― Jay Crownover , Recovered
42 " I can’t love another addict, Cable. I won’t.” She sobbed against my neck, and I brushed my lips against her forehead. “I hate Cable the addict, but I love Cable the recovering addict, even if he’s not always who you choose to be. You need to learn to love him, too. "
43 " She loved me and hated me. I loved and hated her for that. "
44 " I’m pretty sure when I get the hang of all these feelings, when I learn what to do with them, I could learn to love you, Affton Reed. "
45 " You hated me back then and hated me at the start of this ride. Remember?” Her lips twitched. “Exactly. I hate you, Cable James McCaffrey. Now teach me how to suck your cock. "
46 " All I could do was try. Even if I failed, at least I was trying . . . "
47 " If you think about it, love and hate really aren’t that much different when you got right down to it. Both make you crazy. Both make you do things you never thought you would ever do, and both were so, so easy to get lost in. I loved that she hated me . . . and I hated that I was pretty fucking sure I was falling in love with her. "
48 " I thought hating Cable James McCaffrey was overwhelming. Hating him had nothing on loving him. "
49 " If you don’t get help, everything you have, everything you love, is going to go away. Addiction takes and takes and keeps on taking. It’s the most greedy and selfish thing in the entire world. "
50 " I learned that my rock-bottom isn’t as low as some others and that my struggle isn’t unique. I won’t ever be recovered but I am in recovery, and it feels damn good. "
51 " I did everything right. I never misstepped. I was careful, controlled, and had all the plans. I was focused, attentive, and driven. I’d worked my ass off to get exactly where I was. I told myself nothing and no one was going to hold me back or slow me down. I rolled over everyone who got in my way and never looked back. I’d never had anything handed to me or had anything come easy. Including love. "
52 " I never cared what the drugs were doing to me, what they were doing to my life, what they were doing to the people around me. All I cared about was the way I felt when I was high. I was free. I was above all the things pressing down on me. I was out from under the weight that was always there sitting heavy on my chest. I wasn’t happy . . . but it was as close as I’d ever been, "
53 " Someone I had thought about every single day since she told me she hated me. Someone I watched from the moment she showed up in Loveless looking as lost and alone as I felt. Affton Reed. "
54 " When a god falls, he leaves a pretty big dent in the ground where his worshipers walked. "
55 " I was living with a very attractive ghost. One who couldn’t see, hear, or interact with me at all. One who was haunting me. The more he vanished into himself and got lost inside his own head, the harder I tried to grab ahold of him, but it was like trying to clutch smoke between my fingers. He drifted away as soon as I touched him. "
56 " one of the beach bunnies who followed Cable around like he was the Pied Piper of sex and satisfaction. "
57 " He said he didn’t have anything he was interested in; he pretended the only thing he had going for him were his good looks and his ability to make women loopy with lust, but that was all a lie. The boy had a gift . . . was gifted . . . and he didn’t even seem to know it. "
58 " His darkness was caught on those pages, but so was the light he tried so hard to keep from shining through. "
59 " I went inside when he started to lower his head toward the girl in the bikini, hating that he was wasting himself on her . . . and hating that I cared. "