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1 " Omigod, you’re gay? Isn’t that awesome? Come be my friend, it’ll be just like Glee! "
― Amy Lane , Behind the Curtain
2 " When I sleep with someone, I need it to mean something. I need to know someone would look me in the eye and be there the next day, and the next week, and the next month. I’m not stupid—I know it doesn’t always mean forever, but you have to at least think it could be forever. There’s a possibility of forever before you even touch, or you’re just touching to hurt yourself. I can’t be just a quick fuck in the bathroom. "
3 " The point is, they have a public thing against the overweight and the underbeautiful. Those are my people there, Jared. Those are the people who pull the curtain and write the plays and make the costumes—those are the people who make the dream but who don’t live it on the front of the stage. Anyone who knocks those people is not going to get my business. Or yours, because you’re better than that. "
4 " If you don’t want me to buy you silly gifts with great emotional import, don’t disappear in the middle of the mall. "
5 " Jared’s lips quirked up. “Are you sure Benji won’t greet me in the morning with a shotgun?”“Not if you make him french toast. He’ll totally sell me out for someone who cooks. "
6 " Is it always like this?” Dawson whispered. “This buzz in my stomach and my chest—how happy I am to hold you? Does it always feel like this?” Jared lifted his face in the dark, his lower lip full and swollen from kisses, his eyes shiny. “No,” he said soberly. “No. This is special. "
7 " Dawson looked at him, his jaw clenched earnestly, and remembered when he thought Jared was the leader of the two of them. He should have been the leader—he was the older one, the more experienced one. But moment by moment, text by text, touch by touch, it had finally dawned on Dawson that Dawson would survive if their relationship detonated and dissipated in smoke and flames. Jared would be in the heart of the blast. Scientists with microscopes and DNA detectors wouldn’t be able to find him again. "
8 " No man in the history of ever has turned down a blowjob,” he gritted. "
9 " feeling like you’re a failure in the romance department because you couldn’t sprout wood if you woke up as fertile soil and the other guy’s dick was bamboo. "
10 " Well, I can no longer hear the silence.” But that’s okay, because you are mildly amusing and I am enjoying hearing you ramble on like a Led Zeppelin song. “Oh my God!” “What is it this time?” “Your subtext changed!” Jared’s smiles were always "
11 " Jared?” “Hm?” “You’re pretty fucking sick, right?” The thermometer said 103 degrees. “Naw. Need sleep.” “Good, so you’re at death’s door, and you can’t run away when I tell you something.” “What?” “I think we’re in love.” “Yup. I’m out of here.” Not a muscle twitched. “Good. I love you. I’m pissed at you. If you ever do blow again, I will break up with you, but I love you.” “Love you too.” “No more drugs.” “’Kay.” “Promise.” “Promise. "
12 " Benji grinned back. “You’re being a real asshole today, Mr. Barnes. Well done—you been practicing?” Dad smiled, obviously relaxed. “Yeah, you know, kid, a few minutes a day, you can work that muscle with the best of them. "
13 " When I sleep with someone, I need it to mean something. I need to know someone would look me in the eye and be there the next day, and the next week, and the next month. I’m not stupid—I know it doesn’t always mean forever, but you have to at least think it could be forever. There’s a possibility of forever before you even touch, or you’re just touching to hurt yourself. "
14 " I like knowing that people live good lives. You know dancers—it’s all drama and pain and bad relationships and obsession. I like knowing that your life didn’t hurt. It makes me happy. "
15 " He was so lovely, so gorgeous, Dawson couldn’t put a name to how beautiful he was—not divinely, not spectacularly, not beautifully. He just danced. He looked like a soul clothed in muscle. "