3
" I swear to God, if you throw yourself off this roof, I’m jumping after you, and I’m going to catch you.”
Whoa. I don’t know what to make of those words.
My eyes widen, my heart racing.
“I’ll catch you,” he says again, his face so close to mine I can feel his breath on my skin, “because in those few seconds before you hit the ground, I’m going to fucking choke the life out of you for doing that shit. You got me?”
“I got you,” I whisper, surprised I can even speak. "
― J.M. Darhower , Menace (Scarlet Scars, #1)
4
" And what, you think you can fix me?” she asks, turning in her stool to face me, shifting her body closer, so close I can smell the liquor on her warm breath as she whispers, “Think you can make me whole again? Save me from the world? Save me from myself? Fill me up, maybe fuck the feeling back into me, like the big, strong, man you are? Make me a real woman, instead of a broken little girl?”
There’s a sickening sweetness to her voice that sends a chill down my spine. If I never heard a thinly veiled ‘fuck you’ before, that was certainly one for the books. I move closer to her, uncomfortably so, cocking my head slightly as I lean in, watching as her body tenses. She thinks I’m about to kiss her, my mouth just inches from hers, before I stop, my voice gritty as I say, “On the contrary, Scarlet, I don’t think you need to be fixed at all.”
“No?”
“No,” I say. “I think you’re perfect the way you are. "
― J.M. Darhower , Menace (Scarlet Scars, #1)
6
" Got a job for you, Seven.”
“Yeah?”
“I need you to find someone.”
“Who?”
“A woman,” I say. “About five and a half feet tall. Brown hair. Brown eyes.”
“That describes half the women in New York.”
“Yeah, well, the one I’m looking for is twenty-one or so,” I say. “She’s good-looking, kind of curvy for being so petite... got a red ‘S’ tattooed on her wrist...”
He stares at me, like he expects more information. “What else?”
I shrug, glancing at the high heels, flipping them over to look at the red soles. “She wears a size thirty-nine shoe.”
“That’s it?”
“That’s it.”
“Shouldn’t be too hard,” he says, blinking a few times as he looks at the ground. “Only a couple million people in the city.”
“That’s the spirit,” I say, slapping him on the back. "
― J.M. Darhower , Menace (Scarlet Scars, #1)
14
" I got you. It’s okay.”
I blink rapidly, my eyes burning, a lump in my throat that I’m struggling to swallow back.
“I got you,” he says for the third time, “but I’m telling you, if you start fucking crying on me right now, if you start boo-hoo’ing, there’s a chance I’ll just throw you over the side myself, so don’t do it. "
― J.M. Darhower , Menace (Scarlet Scars, #1)
17
" I’ve been told a time or two that I spiral.
Zero to sixty in the blink of an eye.
One second, I’m perfectly fine, laughing, smiling. The next, I’ve got my hands around someone’s throat, choking the life out of them.
There’s probably a name for whatever’s wrong with me, but I’ve got no interest in a diagnosis. I don’t need treatment. Until people stop being ignorant, I’m going to keep on getting pissed. No little mood-stabilizing pill can stop that from happening.
But still, sometimes, I can feel it. I feel myself spiraling hard, and falling far, making mountains out of molehills that even I struggle to climb.
And today? I’m feeling it.
My hands shake.
I can hardly see straight. "
― J.M. Darhower , Menace (Scarlet Scars, #1)
