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1 " Who you want people to be makes you blind to who they really are. "
― Janelle Brown , Watch Me Disappear
2 " All people are unknowable, no matter how close you may think you are. Of the millions of thoughts we all think every day, of the millions of experiences we have, how many do we allow other people to know about? A handful? And no one willingly shares their worst, do they? The flaws you see, those are like the very tip of an iceberg. So we’re all just poking around on the surface, trying to figure out the people we love with a kind of, I guess, naïve idealism. "
3 " Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror. Just keep going. No feeling is final. Don’t let yourself lose me. "
4 " You believe what you think you believe, until suddenly, you realize that you don’t anymore. Or maybe you do believe, but it’s no longer convenient to do so, so you decide to forget. You decide to find other beliefs, ones that more comfortably fit the constantly evolving puzzle of your life. To put it more finely: There are those beliefs that you will carry with you until the end of your days. A belief in friendliness; a belief in long vacations; a belief in the power of the press and the merits of good coffee. And then there are the beliefs that seem so vital when you are young, but that the passing years steadily leach out of you: a belief in not selling out; a belief in the superiority of the artist; a belief in hardwood floors and staying fit and your ability to change the world. Most of all: a belief that love is forever, that you can climb into a stranger’s heart and know that person and be known in return. "
5 " Only someone fearful of his own ordinariness would buy, so unquestioningly, someone else’s extraordinariness. Maybe this is why they say love is blind: Who you want people to be makes you blind to who they really are. "
6 " They’ll cry when you leave and buy you a Costco cake with your name on it and then forget about you ten minutes later when they replace you with someone younger and fresher and cheaper. "
7 " Maybe this is why they say love is blind: Who you want people to be makes you blind to who they really are. "
8 " Only someone fearful of his own ordinariness would buy, so unquestioningly, someone else's extraordinariness. Maybe this is why they say love is blind. Who you want people to be makes you blind to who they really are. "
9 " You don’t realize how much you’ll miss the asphyxiating intimacy of early parenthood until you can finally breathe again. "
10 " Take two people with a mutual willingness to connect, convince them to expose their innermost thoughts, and presto: true love. "
11 " Think about what a miracle it is that we’re all working in concert with one another. Every day humans get a fresh chance to decide whether we’re going to destroy each other or build a better world, and you know what? For the most part, we do the latter. "
12 " Why do adults think that every problem can be fixed by sending you to talk to a more qualified adult. ... It's like a game of Hot Potato: Whenever you have an idea or emotion that doesn't fit comfortably into the box that the world has built for you, everyone goes into a frenzy trying to find an expert who can convince you to climb back inside. "
13 " You spend all this time with "
14 " because I know too many of her secrets.” “Secrets?” He laughed at this, imagining internecine Claremont Mom drama from which he’d been thankfully excluded. “Anyway. I’m sure that’s not true. You’re her best friend.” “You know what Billie’s like,” she continued, a flush stealing up her cheeks. “You spend all this time with her, talking, and you feel like you’re getting in there; and then when you walk away, you realize she hasn’t told you anything real about herself at all. She’s mostly just reflected you back at yourself. What you most want to see. "
15 " a story in its entirety, but to tell an inevitably abbreviated version in the most interesting way one could. Giving shape and direction to something otherwise formless and elastic. Cause and effect. Action and reaction. Lede and kicker. "
16 " Life is more complicated than that, there are endless shades of gray that comprise a human being. "
17 " It is, for one thing, a clear sunny day, which is no small piece of luck when you’re on a Northern California beach in October. The sand is actually warm between their toes, instead of dank and gritty; but the air also has the crisp autumnal bite that makes you want to wrap yourself in something soft. No one acts crabby, or restless, or bored. Billie has packed some particularly delicious sandwiches—pesto chicken for the adults, hummus for Olive (who has recently gone vegetarian)—and they wash these down with tepid cocoa from a thermos "
18 " I believed that divorce was for cowards who used their partner’s failings as an excuse to avoid looking too closely in the mirror. "
19 " It’s as if her mom is always just offstage, about to enter, but keeps missing her cue. "
20 " You were not the typical kid,” Jonathan says. Billie laughs at this and tips her head backward over Jonathan’s knees to smile at him. There’s sand speckling her cheekbones, stuck in the delicate lines around her eyes, and he gently wipes it away. “Anyway, Olive is tougher than you’re giving her credit for. "