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" Rationale told me the time had come to do the very thing I knew I didn’t have the strength for, to break another promise to Abby. I needed to begin saying good-bye. This would destroy me. There would be nothing left of my heart once those words left my lips.
I sat down, not feeling the cushion beneath me, the room and my brothers faded away into silence. My focus trained on my world, so small and fragile before me, and she blurred from tears that fell without mercy.
I leaned over and put my lips to hers. They were soft and warm against mine, a ruse to make me believe she would come back to me. I kissed her with more depth and passion than I normally allowed.
Cupping her face in my hands like I had thousands of times, my tears fell like a raging river that no dam could stop. My lips quivered against hers. My heart cracked, broke, and shattered within my chest. Even now, I couldn’t fathom she was gone. Every cell within me screamed against this; my instinct, faith, and belief told me this was wrong. That word wouldn’t crawl up my throat, lodged deep inside me, buried.
“I love you with all of my being. Come back to me, please. I’m lost without you, Abby. My Abby. "
― Ashlan Thomas , To Love (The To Fall Trilogy #3)