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" His feet started in her direction, his body following rather as a dog would its master, with no thought of deviating from the path chosen by her for him—
iAm grabbed his arm and yanked him back. “Don’t even fucking think about it.”
Trez’s first impulse was to rip himself free, even if he left his own limb behind in his brother’s grip. “I don’t know what you’re talking about—”
“Do not make me grab your hard-on to prove my point,” iAm hissed.
Numbly, Trez looked down at the front of himself. Well. What do you know. “I’m not going to…” Fuck her came to mind, but God, he couldn’t use the f-word around that female, even in the hypothetical. “You know, do anything.”
“You actually expect me to believe that.”
Trez’s eyes flipped over to the doorway she’d disappeared through. Shit. Talk about having no credibility on the subject of abstinence "
― J.R. Ward , Lover at Last (Black Dagger Brotherhood, #11)
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" You are real," she said to herself.
"Aye." His voice was deep and resonant, a caress in her ears. But then it cracked, as if he were in pain. "And you are with young."
"I am."
He closed his eyes again, but now it was as if he'd been struck by a body blow. "I saw you."
"When?"
"At the clinic. Nights and nights ago. I thought they had beaten you."
"The Brotherhood? Why ever - "
"Because of me." His eyes opened, and there was such anguish in them, she wanted to comfort him in some way. "I would never have chosen for you to be in this position. You are not of the war, and my lieutenant should never, ever have brought you into it." His voice grew deeper and deeper. "You are an innocent. Even I, who have no honor, recognized that instantly."
If he had no honor, why had he disarmed himself just now, she thought.
"Are you mated?" he said roughly.
"No."
Abruptly, his upper lip peeled back from tremendous fangs. "If you were raped - "
"No. No, no - I chose this for myself. For the male." Her hand went to her abdomen. "I wanted a young. My needing came, and all I could think of was how much I wanted to be a mahmen to something that was mine."
Those narrowed eyes closed again, and he brought up a callused hand to his face. Hiding his irregular mouth, he said, "I wish that I..."
"What?"
"...I were worthy to have given you what you desired."
Layla again felt an unholy need to reach out and touch him, to ease him in some way. His reaction was so raw and honest, and his suffering seemed rather like her own whenever she thought of him. "
― J.R. Ward , Lover at Last (Black Dagger Brotherhood, #11)
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" No, in his imagination, things ended as they should have, with him stroking Blay’s face and willing the lights on so they could look at each other. In his fantasy, he kissed his best friend again, pulled back, and… “I love you,” he said into the spray of the shower. “I…love you.” As he closed his eyes against the pain, it was hard to know how much of what ran down his cheeks was water, and how much was something else. "
― J.R. Ward , Lover at Last (Black Dagger Brotherhood, #11)
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" In the Old Language, she hissed, “If any harm shall befall him, I will come after you, and find you where you sleep. I do not care where you lay your head or who with, my vengeance shall rain upon you until you drown.” That last word was drawn out, until its syllable was lost in more growling. Dead silence. Until Doc Jane said dryly, “Annnnd this is why they say the female of the species is more dangerous than the male.” “Word,” someone muttered from out in the hall. "
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" What can I do? Blay wondered to himself. Qhuinn’s eyes searched his face. “Do you really want me to answer that?” Apparently he’d spoken out loud. “Yeah, I do.” Qhuinn’s dagger hand reached out and cupped the side of Blay’s jaw. “You sure?” The vibe instantly shifted. The tragedy was still very much with them, but that powerful sexual undertow came back between one heartbeat and the next. Qhuinn’s stare started to burn, his lids dropping low. “I need…an anchor right now. I don’t know how else to explain it.” Blay’s body responded instantly, his blood spiking to the boiling point, his cock thickening, growing long. “Let me kiss you.” Qhuinn groaned as he leaned in. “I know I don’t deserve it, but please…it’s what you can do for me. Let me feel you….” Qhuinn’s mouth brushed his own. Came back for more. Lingered. “I’ll beg for it.” More with the caress of those devastating lips. “If that’s what it takes. I don’t give a fuck, I’ll beg….” Somehow, that wasn’t going to be necessary. "
― J.R. Ward , Lover at Last (Black Dagger Brotherhood, #11)