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1 " The heart you’re ignoring is sitting on your sleeve, bleeding freely. "
― Heather M. Orgeron , Heartbreak Warfare
2 " Love is supposed to be enough. It’s not supposed to rip you to fucking shreds. "
3 " For the moment, we’re right back there in the place we created, where we are perfect. Where our souls line up without any visible smudges on the seams. "
4 " One in five gets diagnosed with PTSD.” I nod. I know that. “One in five, Katy. Do you know how many American soldiers there are?” “Not sure.” “A million point three. I looked it up last night, and that’s just the army.” I sit there, stunned, as she goes on. One in five. One in five. “Right now, two hundred thousand are homeless. Some can’t adapt back into their old lives. Some never even make it home after they get off the bus.” I stew on her words. I know this is to give me a point of reference for my own progress, but my empathy is winning, and my heart is breaking. She looks at me pointedly. “Twenty-two soldiers kill themselves every single day. "
5 " As if she’s somehow heard my inner ramblings, her eyes meet mine in the mirror, and for that moment, in the middle of the desert, I get lost in ocean blue. "
6 " Tough I fully realize the gravity of the situations I am being placed in, I’m essentially just a boy living out his childhood dreams… playing the ultimate game of war. I always wanted to be a hero. To get the bad guys. That may make me a sick fuck, but there have to be men like me out there. You don’t enlist into infantry without that inherent urge to shoot something and the desire to blow shit up. "
7 " We are perfect, and we are impossible. "
8 " For now, my heart is the reckless navigator, and I, a reluctant passenger, unable to escape the way I love him. "
9 " I'm hoping for cloudy skies. "
10 " And there we sit – two soldiers, trained to be the toughest of the tough and the bravest of the brave – our bodies collectively trembling in fear. "
11 " I am two different women, living in two separate worlds, in love with two different soldiers. "
12 " I’m not watching you do it again. I can survive being a soldier, I can survive another war, but it seems I can’t survive loving you. If I have to let you go, you have to let me go too.” He leans in on a whisper. “I love you, Katy, let me go. "
13 " You taught me how to love, and I don’t think this heart is ever going to let me quit you. There are only two things in life I’m sure of: my love of this country and my love for you, only one can I do anything about. "
14 " You were destined to be a part of my life. You’ve changed me. No matter where this journey takes us, when I close my eyes, it will be your face I see. When I breathe my last breath, your name will be on my lips. "
15 " In those ocean blues, I see an apology, and my heart plummets. She regrets it. We’ll never be more than what we were before that phone rang, before her life called her back. "
16 " Love is supposed to be enough. It's not supposed to rip you to fucking shreds. "
17 " Run far and fast, dance that sexy dance, have that second baby. Smile, Scottie. Lighten up, tell jokes, live a long and happy life, for me. "
18 " Trauma creates change you don’t choose. Healing is about creating change you do choose. "
19 " As I close my eyes, one thought runs through my head, felt with the deepest conviction. I’m going to love you, Katy Scott. "