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1 " The words hit me hard enough, I wish I would’ve taken the bullets instead. Because this...hurts so much worse. "
― C.E. Ricci , After Rain Falls (River of Rain #2)
2 " said I’d only stay as long as he didn’t want me to leave. I’d only go when he told me to. All the oxygen is sucked out of the room and I feel like I’m gasping for air when I finally fucking realize... He doesn't want you. He doesn't need you. "
3 " I’m here until he tells me to leave,” he finally says, his voice now detached. “That’s what you do for the people you love. "
4 " I pray I’m the only one who has to walk out of this hospital heartbroken. "
5 " He’s losing it. No, losing it is the understatement of the century. What is more than wrecked? Destroyed? Obliterated? Fucking annihilated. "
6 " Seeing him like this, knowing I can’t do shit to ease his pain, take the burden of his sorrow and put it on my shoulders instead. It’s what you do when you care about someone. When they mean the world to you and you would do just about anything for them. "
7 " I guess the question should be, what does Ted have on you that's made you so afraid? Because you can try to play it off, but I know. I can see your fear, baby. I feel it like it's my own. "
8 " It’s a punch to the gut, seeing him look anything less than completely composed. "
9 " I can never take these things back, Ciaráin. Not believing you when you were only a child. Letting him control both of us. No matter how much I want to try, I can't rewrite history. But if you'll let me, I'd like the chance to make it up to you. "
10 " But the idiot I am, I let Rain in. Again. Into my body, my mind, and my fucking heart. I hate that once again, we’ve proven we’re nothing but an almost. Almost…everything. And knowing this tears me apart. "
11 " Even if it's painful. Even if rebuilding the bridge takes years. And even if the person might not be worthy. Holding onto the pain only hurts me more in the end. "
12 " Because forever wouldn’t have been long enough to spend with River. To learn him and love him. "
13 " A flatline. "
14 " You die, I die too,” I murmur gruffly into his hair, barely more than a whisper tearing itself from my throat. “I go where you go, River. That’s what forever means. "
15 " but respect isn’t something everyone deserves. It’s earned. "
16 " Fine,” I say. “Then you can go. Leave. I don’t need your love or acceptance. I’ll have Mom and Willow and Rain— "
17 " don’t need to be reminded of what a disappointment my father truly "
18 " I swear to fucking God, River. And if you try to die on me again, I’m gonna find a way to bring you back to life just to kill you myself. "
19 " What do I want? Shouldn't it be fucking obvious by now? Shouldn't you know? I've so much as told you," I seethe, ice dripping in my tone. "I want something more than some high altitude fucks for a week or two at a time with absolutely no word from you in between. I want to know I'm not being played like a goddamn fool by feeling more than I should." A sardonic laugh slips from my lips and I scowl at him. "I wanna be able to claim you and mark you as mine and not look like an idiot for it. I want the words from your goddamn mouth to mean something. To be confident in knowing, when this shit is all over and we go back to Boulder, we still have something instead of being terrified everything will come crashing down again. "
20 " I mean, I'd rather you actually fuck Roman than kick a puppy. "