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21 " I was young, I thought I needed the money, but then I realized that my carefree friend was actually living the good way, even though love and heartbreak are often a package deal. "
― Rebecca Serle , In Five Years
22 " You mistake love. You think it has to have a future in order to matter, but it doesn’t. It’s the only thing that does not need to become at all. It matters only insofar as it exists. Here. Now. Love doesn’t require a future. "
23 " When I go to speak, I realize the entire apartment is filled with water and I'm choking on everything I cannot say. "
24 " I wish you understood that you could have love beyond your wildest dreams. Stuff movies are made of. You’re meant for that, too.” “I don’t think I am.” “You are. You know how I know? "
25 " You are not wrong for loving what you do," he says. "You are lucky. Life doesn't hand everyone a passion in their profession. You and I won that round." "It doesn't feel like winning," I say. "No," Aldridge says. "It often doesn't. "
26 " We’ve been on these parallel tracks, David and I. Moving constantly forward in space but never actually touching, for fear of throwing each other off course. Like if we were aligned in the same direction, we’d never have to compromise. But the thing about parallel tracks is you can be inches apart, or miles. And lately it feels like the width between David and me is extraordinary. We just didn’t notice because we were still looking at the same horizon. But it dawns on me that I want someone in my way. I want us to collide. "
27 " I need the morning. There’s something about being the first one awake that feels precious, rare. I feel accomplished before I’ve even had my first cup of coffee. The whole day is better. "
28 " think sacrifice is in direct opposition to manifestation. If you want your dreams you should look for abundance, not scarcity. "
29 " Running does all the things for me it does for everyone else - clears my head, gives me time to think, makes my body feel good and loose. But it also had the added benefit of taking me places. When I first moved to the city I could only afford to live in Hell's Kitchen, but I wanted to be everywhere. So I ran. "
30 " Here was this girl, my best friend, who fit in this faraway place like a hand to a glove. I didn't, and yet she still took me with her. She was always taking me with her, wanting me to be. part of her wide, open life. How could I feel anything but lucky? "
31 " Running does all the things for me it does for everyone else - clears my head, gives me time to think, makes my body feel good & loose. But it has also added benefit of taking me to places. When I first moved to the city I could only afford to live in Hell's Kitchen, but I wanted to be everywhere. So I ran. "
32 " You’re here. One thing I’ve learned is that you can’t try and make this experience above the simplicity of humanity, it won’t work. "
33 " I make her life smooth and solid. She makes mine bright and dazzling. This seems fair. A good trade. "
34 " I love the order of deal making, the clarity oof language--how there is little room for interpretation and none for error. I love the black-and-white terms. "
35 " The wind is low and languid, and the city is buzzy with the happy, contented quality of routine. "
36 " Maybe she knew. Maybe she knew there wasn't time to waste, that she couldn't go through the motions, steps, build. That the linear trajectory would bring her only to the middle. "
37 " feel lonely then, the sensation of which spreads out like a fever, until the whole of my body is afflicted. "
38 " I have been asked if I’ve needed help so many times that I have been allowed to forget the question, the significance of it. I see, now, the way the love in my life has woven into a tapestry that I’ve been blessed enough to get to ignore. But not now, not anymore. "
39 " You’re still you, she’s still her. You still have emotions. You’ll still fight. You can try and be perfect, but it will backfire. Just keep being here, instead. "
40 " I see, now, the way the love in my life has woven into a tapestry that I’ve been blessed enough to get to ignore. "