" When you pray, you know that you want something, that's always the first step. to let yourself know that you want something, that you yearn for it. sometimes that's the hardest thing to do. Because you have to have courage to know what you desire. You have to have courage to acknowledge that you are unhappy without it. "

― Philippa Gregory , The Lady of the Rivers (The Plantagenet and Tudor Novels, #1)