" I’ve learned that life is never what you expect it will be. Just as you come to the fringes of happiness, touching it, feeling it, tasting it—and desperately hoping for the rest of it—it’s jerked away.” “You have your art.” “Yes, but that’s a compulsion, not happiness. I paint because I must. I love because I want to be loved in return. Wanted to be. "

― Charles Todd , A Test of Wills (Inspector Ian Rutledge, #1)