" Dear Thomas, on his knees to me, pleading. And his pain smote me to the core of my heart, and I saw: Mother of misery, I had done this to him.
Cernunnos had tried to warn me. I was not whole, not ready, he had said.
Ongwynn had tried to warn me.
All powers above and below, even the sweet lady mother of us all, had tried. This moment was the one that Lady water had tried to show me…. Yet I whispered, “I cannot. "

― Nancy Springer , I Am Morgan le Fay