QUOTE : Like - okay, I dated this girl who was an artist, right? And she'd do figure drawing where she'd draw the negative space around a person first, and then fill in the person. and that's how I'm trying to look at it. maybe I don't know what fills it in yet, but I can look at the space around where I sit in the world, what creates that shape, and I can care about what it's made of, if it's good, if it hurts anyone, it makes people happy, if it makes me happy. And that can be enough for now.