QUOTE : You were in a bad mood writing that last message and said some very morbid things about wanting to die for the revolution. I hope by the time you receive this reply you will be thinking more about wanting to live for the revolution, and what such a life would look like. You say that few people care what happens to you, and I dond't know if that's true, but I do know that some of us care very, very much - e.g. myself, Simon, your mother. I also feel certain it's better to be deeply loved (which you are) than widely liked (which you probably also are! but I won't labour the point).