QUOTE : I've been hurting most of my life. I tried to pretend I wasn't. I even believed my own lie. I've lived my entire life trying to avoid pain...That's a terrible way to live. I don't care any more if it hurts...If I'm working on a painting, and it doesn't hurt, then the painting won't matter. And if it doesn't matter, then it isn't real—then <i>I'm not</i> real...I have a new theory...if I develop a great capacity for feeling pain, then I am also developing a great capacity for feeling happiness.