" But I don’t want to die—dying is easy. No, I want to live, but getting close to death is the only way to feel alive. And once you do, it makes you realize that everything you were doing before wasn’t actually living. It was just making do. Call me crazy, but I think we do the best living when the stakes are high.'

'You're crazy. "

― V.E. Schwab , A Gathering of Shadows (Shades of Magic, #2)