" What are you burning?" On a glance, just some papers." I write in a journal." He spoke below his breath, so that his words weren't quite for me. " Because I like to see everything written down. So that I know it really happened. That I wasn't just making it up. Then I read it and memorize it. And then I have to destroy the hard evidence." I thought of my own journal, the muddle of every page. All those unfiltered, lunatic letters to Sean Ryan." What is it, exactly, that you need to destroy?" " Everything that I don't want to be true. "