" It’s not like paying attention to them instead would make anything better. Maybe that is what is so hard about it all. There’s nothing useful to do with yourself in so many ways. Your mind just gropes along the edges of that empty space and can’t make any sense of it, can’t find any meaning in it, so you go back to thinking about yourself. It might be that’s all you can do. "

― L.T. Vargus , Casting Shadows Everywhere