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" It was the water, the cleanliness. We didn't have any soap and water. We doused down with insect repellent every night. We didn't bathe like four, five works at a time. We didn't change clothes. The heat, the dehydration. The living situation was just as bad on us as facing the enemy, because you weren't always facing the enemy and you were always facing these conditions of jungle rot, dysentery, dehydration, hunger, fatigue despair, all the time. Almost wishing you'd get hit....
One of the most outstanding things ... was that the conditions we had to live under were animal, purely animal. And your thoughts went to the same way. You live like an animal, you start thinking and eating like an animal and heaving like an animal. Filthy rotten pig, pig, stink! And then how're you supposed to feel good about anything? Y'know, you can't feel good. You always hoping something would happen so you could fall down and get a rest. "
― , Achilles in Vietnam: Combat Trauma and the Undoing of Character