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1 " Be your own gods. Go home and tell other people this: the secret of God is that he's in the fucking mirror. "
― 19 , The Kingdom of Heaven
2 " That, right fucking there, that was what he hated about them. All of them. Their arrogance. That fucking self-satisfied superiority. Their smug assumptions that they understood what was best for everybody, that they couldn't possibly be wrong. For the Bible told them so. "
― 19 , Hero's Torch
3 " Never run from anything immortal. It only attracts their attention. "
― 19 ,
4 " I want to be the most terrible thing that's ever happened to you. Can you understand that? I want to be the only nightmare you ever have. "
5 " I cured you, didn't I? I told you, you'd never want another man again. And you haven't."Erich realized that was probably as close to I love you as Kaltherzig would ever give him. "
― 19 , Schadenfreude
6 " None of it seemed quite real, and yet nothing that had ever come before seemed as real as this. "
7 " It scares me how much I need him. I need him every minute in a tight ache from throat to heart to solar plexus to cock. I need him so violently it makes me masturbate until I'm raw. I need to bite his collarbone and his palms and his earlobes and his tongue. I need to fuck him until he's sobbing and bleeding and screaming and comes so hard he sounds like an animal underneath me. "
8 " (testing me, all the time) "
9 " I am a sculpture, he thought, and wrapped his arms around himself. He was smiling. This thought made him feel beautiful, made cherry-cordial-fireworks inside him every time he mouthed it to himself. "
10 " The past is a fucking read-only file. "
11 " I'll do a lot of evil shit, far worse than you've seen yet, but I will never fuck up a library or their books.Libraries are sacred.Books are fucking sacred. "
12 " I didn't know it was possible to be this attracted to someone. It...hurts. Is it supposed to hurt? "
13 " I don't understand dating, or love, or relationships, or social customs, or queer or androgyny or what the fucking PASSWORD is to get into this one. "
14 " Do you love her?”This is awful and it’s out before I can think, and it’s filled with such pointythings that I feel it hurt him. I don’t want to hear the answer, and he doesn’t offerone.“Does she make your hands shake like that?”“No.”That’s all he says, but there’s enough misery in it to tell me all I need to know.And for a minute I think it’ll be enough to stop me, which would be good, because alot more poisonous questions like that are boiling in my throat. But then it isn’tenough.“Does she make you hard like I do?”Because I want another no. Because I need another no, because maybe that onewill make me stop loving him and I’ll survive. "
15 " I'd rather be weird than stupid. "
16 " It made him wonder if gazelles felt something similar, before the lions came. "
17 " How dare you understand me. "
18 " Surely there were prisoners more beautiful than he was. That had gotten him the, audition, but something else entirely was what kept him here. He dared not name that something. If he did that, it might disappear. "
19 " Then it occurred to him that perhaps this was for the doctor's pleasure, all of it, and that it would never stop. "
20 " He was helplessly reminded of what a bath must be like for a dog. "
