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21 " She turns her head so slowly to look at me that for a moment I am stricken with the weird unfamiliarity of being seen—no, not seen. Recognized. It’s rare enough someone knows I’m me and not Ethan without getting a good look at me. It’s straight up weird when someone can tell without fully turning around. The only person I know who can do that is Grandma Belly—my parents still mix us up so frequently that there’s about a 50 percent chance I am Ethan, and someone switched us along the way. "
― Emma Lord , Tweet Cute
22 " How can a person even know who they are if they don't know what they want? "
23 " But sometimes even shouting into a void feels better than just staring into it. "
24 " I can see it too. That I don’t belong here. That even after all this time and everything I’ve done, the things I’ve pressed and organized and pushed into myself to fit into this place, home is still somewhere a thousand miles away. Farther than that, even. Because that version of home doesn’t exist anymore. "
25 " These are the things that tether me, the things I’ve always been and just assumed would always be. What she’s saying right now feels a lot like permission to leave it behind, and it scares me every bit as much as it relieves me. "
26 " You're...you're a forever kind of person to me. You always have been. "
― Emma Lord , You Have a Match
27 " I don't even make it to the bed, sitting on the floor for no real reason, really, except the bed seems too comfortable, and I don't deserve to ride this misery out in any kind of comfort. "
28 " There's nothing quite as awkward as living in a shadow that is quite literally the same shape as yours. "
29 " I've just assumed there were certain directions my life was going to take. The safe kind. The kind everyone else was taking, and I plowed through with a vengeance. It hasn't been easy, but it hasn't been brave either. The idea of actually straying from it is either thrilling or terrifying, the two feelings swallowing each other and spitting each other back out before I can settle on one. "
30 " It's weird, how you have to idea how far you've come until suddenly you can't find the way back. "
31 " They’re here for your grilled cheese,” I told her.She fixed me with a look, crossing a leg on the massive armchair she spent most of her time in and raising a single eyebrow at me. “Not unless you changed my secret ingredient to cocaine, they’re not. "
32 " I wish more than anything I could ask him something now. I was prepared to lose him, maybe. But I wasn't prepared for what happens after the losing. "
― Emma Lord , When You Get the Chance
33 " It's not going to make the slightest difference...But sometimes even shouting into a void feels better than just staring into it. "
34 " I miss being able to prepare for things, and knowing where I fit. Not even knowing, really, because when you grow up somewhere, you don't have to think about fitting into it. You just do. "
35 " I feel strangely invincible, like the moments happening right now don't count for anything, but somehow count for everything at once. "
36 " Because I drink coffee like a real New Yorker and you drink tea like the American Revolution never happened. "
37 " Like I finally get the sentiment behind all those sappy power ballads, where the music in them actually comes from: not from some burst of creative genius or some big, sweeping feeling. But from the moments in between. The sneaky ones. The ones where you look up at someone and your heart understands something before the rest of you does. "
38 " What I can’t let go of is the way I tried just now to tell my mum my world was falling apart, and she left. "
39 " ... - the issue isn't so much what I want to be, but whether of not I can be it without hurting everyone else in the process. "
40 " Jack is the kind of person who fills silences. The kind of person who doesn't necessarily command attention, but always seems to sneak it from you anyway. "