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" he was my first love, and the trepidation that constantly threatened to derail us only served to heighten our passion. It was a time of intense emotion, so fierce that I have never experienced anything like it since, and have never wanted to, happy to settle for security and predictability. I feel my eyes flood with tears as I acknowledge that I have chosen to replace the fiery heat I’ve fought shy of in my marriage with the thrill of the poker table. Dominic is a good man, but if ever there was a time to recognise the truth, it’s now, and I have to admit that sometimes I feel stifled. The warm blanket that he wraps around us all sometimes threatens to suffocate me. I began to play poker because I needed to save myself, my marriage, my home and my mother’s home, but now I don’t want to stop. It’s the only time I soar to the heights of excitement that I crave. "
― Rachel Abbott , The Shape of Lies (DCI Tom Douglas, #8)